Saturday, February 28, 2009

ONCE...all is done ?

It was early Wed (25 Feb) morning...too early that either people are supposed to be sleeping or not supposed to be awake at all.  I said it all that morning, the intention, the thinking and most importantly...the decision.  Earlier seems like well...but then it's not quite as expected.  And that incident kinda close any chance of closing the gap and trying again.

I had enough i guess.  For the best of all, I believed that's the best solution.  Have tried so many ways, bearing it for as long as I can remember...and with much thinking and trying...I've lost all the steams to move on.  Thinking further just made my head heavier, trying to figure out the light at the end of the tunnel that never seems to come out.

As much as I want to get it over with, I have to hold on for just a little while.  I guess, Mar 2009 will decide...whether it'll be over...or better.  For now...I apologize to all that affected...it's my bad...I'm really really sorry...

Monday, February 16, 2009

ONCE...hmmm...

Many things happen since 13 Feb...all the way over the weekend...wanna share it here but dunno how & where to start...best of all...can't really share it  :(   be it good or bad, has to swallow it alone...

man...do i love or hate my job ? hmmm...

Monday, February 02, 2009

ONCE...syukur

I spent almost the whole day yesterday in the office to update all the status about my current project in the system.  Then, update all the necessary DBs as well as trying to do the tender (but didn't managed to).  And some 'heart-broken' incident that happen as well.

Anyway, today had a meeting with the team preparing for tomorrow's.  They expected me to be there everyday and just forget the remaining task that I have back in the office.  Hmm...how I wish I could.  Back to office, had few meetings...then my boss told me that she has something to talk to me...erk..suspense !!!  

She told me that she need to put me into the KH project but further details Roks will update me.  Then, sat down with Roks & Man...being welcomed to the team..briefed briefly on the scope and expectations.  Told him about my pending activities and hope that can announce that I start full-time starting next week.

After that, bum into Roks at the surau where he told me that I'm lucky.  Someone requested for me to be involved in the project, otherwise he said, no new bodies will join the team.  Hope that does not bring uneasiness to the team.  And with that also, the expectations are high on me.

Now, I started feeling that time is really short for me.  I remembered one hadith..lebih kurang camni la:

Beringatlah tentang 5 perkara sebelum datangnya 5 perkara:
- Muda sebelum tua
- Sihat sebelum sakit
- Lapang sebelum sibuk
- Senang sebelum susah
- Hidup sebelum mati

Nevertheless, am thankful to God for His blessings and guidance in going thru all those challenges.  Alhamdulillah...