ONCE...nikmat

Nikmat Allah turunkan ada bermacam2. Nikmat kenyang..nikmat tidur..nikmat hilang dahaga..nikmat kepuasan (segala macam kepuasan la kirenye)..nikmat kejayaan..nikmat kasih sayang..nikmat berjalan..nikmat melihat..nikmat berfikir..dan bermacam2 lagilah.

Manusia kebiasaannya tidak bersyukur atas nikmat yg dikurniakan. Ada yg merasakan nikmat hanya dtg selepas diuji..padahal didlm Al-Quran tlh dijelaskan bahawa nikmat dikurniakan sepanjang masa..kpd semua umat manusia..tidak mengira bangsa, agama dan usia. Dan amatlah sedikit manusia itu yg bersyukur.

Kita cume kenal akan nikmat setlh diuji. Itupun jika kita berusaha utk merenumg akan ujian yg diturunkan serta hikmah yg tersirat disebaliknya. Ramai antara kita yg bersyukur setlh diuji...kadang2, nikmat ditarik balik kerana kita tak bersyukur. Kerana kita salahguna nikmat yg dikurniakan..ataupun mungkin, didatangi ujian yg lebih hebat..utk kita kenal akan nikmat yg lebih tinggi..supaya kita bersyukur.

Sempena bulan barakah ini serta kedatangan Syawal tidak lama lagi...saya ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya kpd rakan2 semua...dan mohon ampun maaf sekiranya ada terkasar bahasa, tersilap kata, terguris hati, terluka rasa...dan mohon halalkan makan minum serta ilmu dan pengalaman yg dikongsikan. Sama2lah kita panjatkan kesyukuran kehadratNya atas segala nikmat yg tlh dikuriakanNya.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir Batin

(posted from my E71)

ONCE...hurt

Hurt only happens when we love someone.  It hurts to love...and even more when we hurt the person that we love.  So many times it happen...hurting the ones that we love the most. Mostly unintentionally.

Some cases allow us to understand the other party better.  As we hurt, as they hurt, we know the limits and boundaries...we know and understand the other party better, the relationship and love would become much more meaningful.  But, there are cases also where it becomes a disaster.  Unrecoverable..no turning back..catastrophe..disappointment..frustration..unacceptable.

Why do we hurt  ?  Is it because we have expectations and the expectations was not shared with the other party or the expectations was not met at all ?  Or because we haven't know the other party well just yet ? 

Then, how do we prevent from hurting people that we love that brings to disaster ?  Was it much easier not to love anybody ?  Or perhaps just a few or only One ?  

...just a food for thoughts...

ONCE...PMP Exam !

I've shared about the exam here.  The exam took place this morning.  I've ramped-up since Sun till the eleventh hour last nite.  Didn't sleep on Sun, Mon and Tue (covered during the day..got permission to MIA to study).  I informed my customer that I'm taking the exam, so try not to disturb me hehehe.

Last nite was very challenging.  Planned to do last revision, reading the summaries, study the past exam by looking at the answers, etc.  But He knows more than we do.  At 9 pm, my wife started shivering.  Didn't respond when I called her.  My heart pumping like crazy.  My kids all started crying.  Nu'man even started promising to be good boy, will listen to what my wife said.."nu'man janji..wake up la ummi..".

Called 999 but they asked me repeatedly "what's your wife's condition ?"  Some point I get irritated already.  What do they expect ? I just need an ambulance !  Then, connected to Hospital Klang.  I cancelled, I wanna send her to SMC.  They assisted by giving me SMC's number.  Called SMC, they channeled it to the Emergency and they gave me a mobile number (&*$%!!!) which not answered.

Get all my kids into the car (and all of them cried like anything).  I carried my wife from bed to the car (I really really need to go back to the gym !).  Drove as fast as I can to my in-laws house. Drop the kids. Prayed hard to God (fuel indicator blinking from home) to allow me to reach SMC, then it's ok to run out of fuel.  Emergency started doing their work, then they said need to do CT Scan, admitted after receiving ING's GL.  By midnight warded and my mom-in-law arrived.

Since it's sharing, husband can't wait.  Told my mom-in-law that I've exam in the morning.  I'll come straight after the exam.  Went back, prayed, packed my kids & wife's stuffs, drop them at my in-laws house...and head to the Lab.  Studied there till 2.30 am where my body can't go anymore.  Took a nap (intended just a nap and wake up for sahur).  But woke-up at 6.15, phone got problem (no network !!!).  Had to turned it off, then on again.

Then, do my last revision, transfer some docs to my new E71. I left at 7 am...arrived at 7.30 am.  My exam suppose to start at 9 am, need to be ther eby 8.30.  But they said, can start early..then finish early.  Took some time to do last revision (on the formulas), then went in at 7.55 am.  Prayed alot..selawat alot...dozed off quite alot as well.  Finished it all in 3 hours and 40 minutes.  I closed my eyes as I click Submit (and prayed like crazy again!).

Instead of result, questionnaire first.  Do it quickly..and again, close my eyes as I submit the survey. "Please God...I wanna see Congratulations...".  Then, "Congratulations ! You have passed the PMP Exam...."  Alhamdulillah..thank God !!!  And I cried in front of the PC.  After all the challenges, my prayers was answered...I really really thanked Him.

Am glad and thankful for the trust that my bos gave to me as she fought and justify to management for me taking the exam.  Thankful to my wife for allowing me to take the time off studying...to all my friends and buddies for the support.  Now, am humbly declared myself as

Project Management Professional !

ONCE...7th Anniversary

Yesterday, our 7th anniversary (sorry dear..late posting this). I must say, this time is the most challenging year for us. For me especially. We were tested big time!

She always been a good wife, good mother to our kids, good women. She's the best I must say. The fact that she hold strong listening to all my explanations and confessions, and accepting them as well..really made me salute her. Am I the best for her ? I hope and will strive to be just that. Is she the best for me ? No question about that at all.

No matter what..I'll cherish and will find ways to further improve our relationship, ensure happiness all the time. Please bear with me on all my weaknesses and limitations, my...(u know what honey..). I pray to Him...and will always pray for us to be together..come what may...We all had and will always be tested as we live. And I always believed that there's wisdom or blessings or lessons waiting for us to unveiled from every test that comes. Your trust and forgiveness are highly appreciated.

I love you always...happy 7th anniversary sayang...muah ! :D

ONCE...do brave things ? #2

Talking about brave things...since I posted the brave things on Aug 28, I've done a few brave (or perhaps more accurately 'crazy'?) things. Some with good impact, some with bad impact, some short-lived while some longing still.

As we're in Ramadhan, am surrendering myself to Him to show and guide me the way, the best way to handle it, to face it, to overcome it, to swallow it, to move-on. Also asking Him to show me and guide me to uncover the wisdom hidden under all those challenges. There's no Satan per se, just nafs...and it really damn difficult to fight!

May Allah give me (and whoever related & required) the strength, patience and wisdom to survive the challenges. Amin.