ONCE...Ramadhan 2012

I just realized that I missed posting for June.  So many things happened since the last time I blogged.  Fruitful, sweet no less pain as well.

The Anniversary Dinner introduced me to moments that I have long forgotten.  I was unsure about it but pretty sure that my heart kinda closed for it.  Don't want to repeat the same mistake again.  But, I played along...laid my baselines, shared my priorities on the table.  If willing, we'll see how it goes.  Unwilling ? Remain as friend.

It was when I met the mother that I realized...in fact, after a while I realized...that was the reason I started opening up my heart.  No hypocrisy..no hiding..no prejudice..accepting me as who I am, for the good and bad.  At one point, made me scared too.  Afraid of failing, hurting and being hurt.  Somehow, it prevailed till now.

While those on going, I was shared with shocking news.  Need to vacate my place almost urgently.  I asked for 3 weeks, which I got it...but I vacate it the same week still.  It's pity to turned out that way, but, some things are better remain unspoken I guess.  Sometimes, not knowing is better then know it all.

Today, 1st day fasting in the office.  Fasting at hometown with my family members are great...just that, not so nice for my stomach & diet.  Thought of controlling it today, but failed again.  Will exercise starting tomorrow...and hope, Ramadhan this year is better than last year.

Happy fasting you allz...!!!

ONCE...30th Anniversary Dinner

It was a great night last night...celebrating Mesiniaga's 30th Anniversary Dinner.  I must say that I'm proud to be Mesiniagans.  For the history...for the culture...for the value its creating.  I must say it never easy to stay on top, but it's a challenge or journey that will never ends.  And it also make everyday, an interesting and special day.

Met lots of new faces...some new...some are there for years but probably not based in HQ.  For all the newcomers, welcome aboard !  There are lots of come-backs recently.  I noticed the last 2 years we've seen ex-Mesiniagans coming back onboard.  Most of them after leaving Mesiniaga for years...and bringing their values and experiences to strengthen the company.

I've lots of memorable experiences throughout my 6 years tenure.  Sweet, great and awful inter-twinned.  The last 2 months brought few good news to me.  I've won an infra project despite losing the application one.  Eyeing for few more coming.  Firing up to replicate to others which I'm lacking currently.  Need to really push myself to go for it.

Some of my colleagues featured here...this is the most AWESOME team with COOLEST boss (can be nasty too when it come to quarter ends)...my buddies are also here...we had great time last nite !!!  And this year...I don't want to be left behind...

ONCE...gadgeting

I never really thinking about going to have this gadget...it's really like a dream...now, i've this gadget that hopefully would make me be more efficient (if you will)...thank you for believing in me...

ONCE...3 wood in action

I was summoned on Thu to be up in Awana by noon yesterday.  So I did.  Warm welcome as always.  After Friday prayer, 4 flights take-off.  Mine on the forth, only 3 of us...play peacefully...no game, no psycho...just enjoying the view, the breeze, the scenery...

Alhamdulillah, I played quite well...managed to break 100 with 1 birdie and 3 pars...first time playing there though...and again, 3 wood all the way...surprisingly, I won the forth place in Modified 36 system...!!!  This is how close I was for my birdie at 17th Hole (Par 3) Awana Genting...yeehaaa !!!

ONCE...football fever

It started last month...when my golf buddy planned to throw a treat to our maintenance team by playing friendly football match...he started checking on who's who wanna play, and definitely I'm joining !  The idea is to build-up my stamina for the coming badminton tournament in May.

I bought a new football boot (of course Adidas)...and it was left idle for almost a month !!! When I thought about selling it back, the 1st training session started on Fri 3 Mar 2012 at PLUS FC's home...great turnout that day, almost 24 people altogether...the plan is to gauge who's who can play in which position...

Last Wed we had our 2nd session...this time, 1st 11 forward against 1st 11 defense...I played defense for 1st 11 forward...surprisingly, with extra warm-up session this time around, I had thigh muscle pain..perhaps, the muscle is developing...not long after that, my colleague injured his shoulder and I took over as goalkeeper...kept it quite well though ;-)

Guess for now, I'm the official 2nd keeper for the team...had a few great tips last nite that I can put into practice this coming Tue...refreshing and enjoyable...

ONCE...getting back on my feet

Last week I hang out with my close friends...it touched me when he said that he felt 'terhegeh2' in helping me as it seems like I'm not doing anything yet after we talk about it.  What I've done is not to his expectations...he really eager to help me...and I have to show that I also want to change my life.

Another shared that I've lost focus.  It struck me really...not knowing that is how they saw me.  I must say it ain't easy to get back on my feet...to stay in focus or remain in focus...most of all...am not aware that I'm losing focus...

Realizing is one thing...doing something about it is another...will see how it goes for another 21 days...

ONCE...PIKOM PLC Training Day 5

Last day it was on Fri 13 Jan 2012.  That's where the conclusion of the training, the results and time to move on.  Alhamdulillah Thank God I passed and certified...great relieve.  Above all, I learnt so much...know where I am compared to the legendary leaders, knows the gap..and what I need to do to reduce the gaps.

The last words that sifu told me was...'Let go ! You're good..now go and practice.  Share with me the success stories..'.  Ironically, all the movies I watched that nite, never failed to mention the word 'let go'.  Kinda reminding me on what I'm supposed to do from that day onward.

I'm really glad that I went to the training...even with the wrong reason initially...but I'm moved now on what I want to do and achieve in live.

ONCE...PIKOM PLC Training Day 1

Mon was the 1st day of the training.  It does provides me with the realization of where I am and how I performed before.  There's a lot of learning to be done, unlearn and relearn.  I need to empty my cup again in the coming session.  I did it yesterday...and made lots of mistakes so that I can learn new stuffs.

One thing I learned, leaders are humble.  It is something that I've lost for quite a while.  Will slowly develop it back...hopefully, it won't take too long for me to master it again.  And above all, I want to be certified in this program.  Insya-Allah...

ONCE...2011 coming to an end

In a couple of hours, 2011 will come to an end.  It has been a great year for me...for both good and bad.  It brought new experiences to me...totally new in fact.  Never before I've such an interesting journey that gather so much experiences.

With the end of 2011, it is complete 365 days for me being in Sales.  I felt deeply when I didn't manage to meet.  I had known for long that I won't be able to meet...however, new feeling arrived 2 days before closing.  I shared it with my big boss yesterday...the feeling of embarrassment and humiliation came strongly in me.  Even though I'm used to nasty jokes...this one felt in my heart.  Not that I have any ill feelings with my friends, but it's just me feeling that way.  And I will make sure that I won't get that feeling again next year.

In this thrilling 365 days, I got to know better the people surrounding me.  The friends, colleagues, closed and buddies.  Within and among them who turned out having different opinion about me eventually.  My friendliness was treated wrongly which asked me to think again on how should I treat them.  It's either I changed the way I behave or just ignore them as I used to do to all non-worthy-people-of-my-time.  Will see how 2012 goes.

It made me wonder whether have I worked hard enough as hard as I played for the pass 365 days.  I tend to believe that it is just my perception since the result does not portray as such.  Perhaps, I should try to play less and work harder for the next 365 days.

I just realized that most of my words above kinda soul-searching or self-realization or in a much simpler words...BAD !  I know I had my moments as well.  Great ones.  Let's see...among them, I managed to build great rapport with my core customers...I managed to continue my close rapport with previous customer...I managed to close the gaps in the office...I'm in control on how I do and prepare my submissions...improved my golf play...reunited with long lost friends...and I think the most of it is, reignite my desire to stay ahead from the rest of the herds..!  I'm sure I've lot more than that but only those that came across my mind as I'm writing this post.

Insya-Allah, Gods willing...2012 will be a better year for me...thank you 2011, syukur Alhamdulillah, thank God for all the sweet and sour memories...signing off for 2011..adios !!! da svidania !!!

ONCE...is it gonna be my time soon ?

It has been about 10 days since the last time I played golf.  The urge to play is really killing me...but I have to be strong to put that away for a while.  I manage to successfully submit the papers on time on Monday.  God knows how pressured I was when the time ticking and we're still at the office.  Thank God, road went smooth and we arrived 15 minutes earlier.

Now, time to demonstrate.  The preparation started way earlier and it is about time to start cracking.  The tense started getting to the roof.  And somehow...most of the time, I had to take charge and chart the course.  I really hope that all will go well and done.  Few more days to go..and God's willing, I would be home-run.

Ya Allah, mudahkanlah urusan hambaMu ini..Amin.

ONCE...in 100 years; 11.11.11 my birthday !!!

Today, 11 Nov 2011 aka 11.11.11, I celebrated my 18th birthday for the 16th times !!!  Never thought about it being once in every 100 years until a friend posted on my FB.

It is one of the best birthday I've had so far.  It touched me when I received an SMS at 10pm last nite asking me to get ready to go out.  Apparently, my close friends organizing a small birthday party for me at Garden.  Thank you Eka for remembering, Arman for organizing, Swafee for the cake, Herfa for the time, Azhar for the effort and Dr Hasan for joining.  They are my buddies !!!

Thanks again to Swafee, Eka and Arman for hosting birthday dinner at TGIF few hours ago.  Never had a celebration that spares more than 2 hours before.  This has been almost 24 hours.  Thank you guys..I love you all !!!

Thank you to my brother in Illinois ..my sister-in-law in Miri..my sister in Seremban and of course my mum in Kuala Selangor for the thoughtful wishes.

Just realized that the game we played on Thu was a great one.  I won quite a few...nice present perhaps.

Thank you to all my friends who has sent their wished to me.  Really appreciate it.

In life, we may see someone...be friend to them..some fall in love or stay close...some lost or betrayed...but what important is to treasure the people that treat and accept you the way you are.  Share the joy and sadness together...while the body is still on the earth, cherish the moments...before the body goes beneath the earth...

For all the people out there who celebrate the 11.11.11 either for their birthday, anniversary or whatever...hope you all have the best celebration ever !!!

ONCE...Imagine That

It's Raya's eve and I'm still in Klang Valley.  There has been customer's issue that I've to look into for a while.  Seems like it has been overcome..Alhamdulillah...hope it stays like that for good.

While handling that issue, I watched 'Imagine That'.  A very interesting story about father and his daughter..the father believing in the magical world that the daughter created because it benefited his career.  It was towards the end that I realized that the daughter just want the time with him.  She enjoyed the moments that the father did all the crazy stuffs to get into the magical world and gather business intels for his job.

It has been a while since the last time I saw my kids.  Started with works that I've to do, then I don't feel safe bringing my kids in my car now until I get the car back to good conditions.  It's really hard this year.  I went to this type of job believing that I can do a great job and earn more.  I also believe that 'rezeki' will come..when it is due to you.  He loves and has mercy to all mankind.  Whatever the conditions I'm living in now, He has planned for it.

As a prove to that...I received an SMS two hours ago that made me so relieved.  I've got enough oxygen to survive for another two weeks.  Felt really relieved...thank you God. Syukur...

ONCE...grown ups

This morning I was informed that our colleague had passed away...he is a guy with nothing on his face except smile ! Anytime, anywhere...any situation...smile was part of his accessories.  My condolences to the family of Mr Tony Yeoh On Teong.  R.I.P brother !

I watched Grown Ups after the LPGA @ KLGCC game was suspended due to bad weather.  Entertaining...but what makes me wanna blog here about it was one scene...where Roxanne saw the kids was enjoying the lake with their friends...and she can't throw the rock as she could before...and told Leni that it's better to stay instead of going to Milan...I really do not know what hit me...but I'm touched.  Really touched that I got teary eyes.

I do not know why...just shed the tears and enjoy the movie till the end...perhaps I don't wanna think about it just yet..

ONCE...it ain't always sunshine

Today started in a mixed feelings.  Controlling and stay tough even though it may hurt someone.  Unfortunately, I believed that is the best after what happened last week.  It is needed to remain as the way I thought it was..and to make it, it is again.

Arrived early today in the office and tried to solve few issues, finish up pending activities and ready for new challenges.  New challenge it is !!!  We head out and fight, and as expected...when one thing turns good, the other went wrong...unknowingly.  It's very late before I realized what went wrong.  Nevertheless, there's always other times.

Just like the game named GOLF; learn, unlearn and relearn...do, rectify, make-it...it is a non-stop process, sometimes you're on top...and sometimes you're at the bottom...the most important thing is: DON'T GIVE UP !!  It's true that it ain't always sunshine...but it will always be sunshine...when the black cloud pours it rains or when the wind blow it away...HEADS UP !!!

ONCE...when it all goes well

Last week has been among the great golfing days in my life...my driver worked well..my irons are good..my chippings are great and my putting is fabulous !!! Hit a good score and win some holes as well...and it was really meaningful why I beat my friend who is better in golf before this.

Then again, as the name of the game is GOLF...not everyday has sunshine.  My game went down a bit on Sat...yet, I still won against my other friend who actually introduced golf to me.  It do feel great.  Hope the momentum stays for few more games next week.

Last week also among the most hectic week as it was the quarter closing time.  Tried to push it to meet, but couldn't make it.  On the last day of Sept, I saw additional numbers kicked-in.  Thank God that I'll be getting some...even though not that much...but it is still meaningful.  I'm setting my eyes to get better numbers towards year end.  Hope, it will all goes well...

ONCE...my kids growing

Yesterday was my turn to Raya with my kids.  Great moments as usual.  They are quite independent..good to talk to..have their own opinion which need to be guided.  My golf buddy invited to his house last nite..all of my kids would like to come..but after we came back from Raya at 1830h, they're all sleeping.  Only my youngest son awake at 2000h when I'm about to leave.

The raya gathering was brief..only few of close friends.  My son behave very decently..keeping quiet, relax and not as aggressive as he used to be.  Fortunately, we've lady friends at the house that took care of him while I'm away catching my 'breath'.  Turned out my son vomited..and I didn't bring extra cloth.  Thanks to Sasha to lend him Yasmin's cloth.

Today, on the way back to their mom's, we went to Toys'r'Us.  Gave them total freedom to choose what they wanted and really glad that my daughter chose something useful.  I don't quite agree with my son's earlier choice, but then he chose himself the toy that he has been asking for.  My youngest...whatever he likes.

Then, my daughter opted for the slides to go to the lowest ground before heading home with a Tutty Fruity.  Thank God for all Your blessings.

ONCE...back in town

It feels like it's already Sunday where in fact, it was just Saturday.  Started looking into what I need to do from Mon onwards.  Not that I'm too workaholics but there's lots of things pending before Raya leave.  Have to ensure it all cleared by Mon morning.

My golf buddies are slowly coming back to KL today.  It's been quite a while since the last time we played (was it..? It was just last week !! hahahaha)...well, that was the feelings though.

Raya this year felt very different...it doesn't feel the same.  Perhaps, it's because of my 'excellent' records this Ramadhan ? Or because the event on 2nd Raya ? Or perhaps...both !  Really don't feel like enjoying it.

Having said that, I do hope to see the next Ramadhan...and hoping that I'll do better this time.

ONCE...mengah..

Macam biasa la bila raya...bukan nak kata nafsu makan ke hapa..tapi bila tgk nasi himpit ngan rendang..makan sikit jek, tapi sebab perut dah kecik kut, cepat je mengahnye..pastu lantak aku punya favourite 'chifon + icing', lagi la kan..

raya semalam layan lemang + rendang daging + kuah kacang kerang + ayam masak merah + nasi himpit + dodol...perh..mengah siut...lepas amik adik gua kat airport semalam, ada nasi ngan telur dadar kat umah..layan 2x pinggan...mmg sah naik badan aku nih...kena exercise lebih la lepas ni kut...

this morning, as expected...2-3 kali la aku ke jamban...overall raya cam biasa...cuma ada bende yg aku terasa malas nak layan...and that thing will happen today..we'll see how it goes...

ONCE...raya datang lagi

Setelah sebulan berpuasa, tibalah saat yang ditunggu2 oleh semua umat Islam diseluruh dunia. Menyambut Syawal tiba..bergembira berhari raya bersama sanak saudara.

Aku mengenang puasaku tahun ini...kutahu sejauh mana telah kugapai nikmatnya Ramadhan...cume, sepertinya aku malas untuk memikirkannya terlalu dalam...sampai bilakah aku akan terus begini..?

Kepada semua rakan-rakanku yang bakal meraikan Syawal ini..Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri dan Maaf Zahir Batin...moga selamat pulang ke kampung halaman serta selamat kembali bekerja.

ONCE...Ramadhan once again

It's the time that being waited by all faithful Muslim around the world. I waited with mixed feelings...one, excited to make all the good deeds to tidy-up my messed life recently..two, worried as my performance last year was not impressive at all...

1st day fasting, seems like it creeping me up..numb and slow..but 2nd day pretty good..lively and recovering slowly..hope the momentum maintain throughout the entire Ramadhan...

to all Muslims, welcome to Barakah's month and lets grab all the blessings offered to us..