ONCE...2011 coming to an end

In a couple of hours, 2011 will come to an end.  It has been a great year for me...for both good and bad.  It brought new experiences to me...totally new in fact.  Never before I've such an interesting journey that gather so much experiences.

With the end of 2011, it is complete 365 days for me being in Sales.  I felt deeply when I didn't manage to meet.  I had known for long that I won't be able to meet...however, new feeling arrived 2 days before closing.  I shared it with my big boss yesterday...the feeling of embarrassment and humiliation came strongly in me.  Even though I'm used to nasty jokes...this one felt in my heart.  Not that I have any ill feelings with my friends, but it's just me feeling that way.  And I will make sure that I won't get that feeling again next year.

In this thrilling 365 days, I got to know better the people surrounding me.  The friends, colleagues, closed and buddies.  Within and among them who turned out having different opinion about me eventually.  My friendliness was treated wrongly which asked me to think again on how should I treat them.  It's either I changed the way I behave or just ignore them as I used to do to all non-worthy-people-of-my-time.  Will see how 2012 goes.

It made me wonder whether have I worked hard enough as hard as I played for the pass 365 days.  I tend to believe that it is just my perception since the result does not portray as such.  Perhaps, I should try to play less and work harder for the next 365 days.

I just realized that most of my words above kinda soul-searching or self-realization or in a much simpler words...BAD !  I know I had my moments as well.  Great ones.  Let's see...among them, I managed to build great rapport with my core customers...I managed to continue my close rapport with previous customer...I managed to close the gaps in the office...I'm in control on how I do and prepare my submissions...improved my golf play...reunited with long lost friends...and I think the most of it is, reignite my desire to stay ahead from the rest of the herds..!  I'm sure I've lot more than that but only those that came across my mind as I'm writing this post.

Insya-Allah, Gods willing...2012 will be a better year for me...thank you 2011, syukur Alhamdulillah, thank God for all the sweet and sour memories...signing off for 2011..adios !!! da svidania !!!

ONCE...is it gonna be my time soon ?

It has been about 10 days since the last time I played golf.  The urge to play is really killing me...but I have to be strong to put that away for a while.  I manage to successfully submit the papers on time on Monday.  God knows how pressured I was when the time ticking and we're still at the office.  Thank God, road went smooth and we arrived 15 minutes earlier.

Now, time to demonstrate.  The preparation started way earlier and it is about time to start cracking.  The tense started getting to the roof.  And somehow...most of the time, I had to take charge and chart the course.  I really hope that all will go well and done.  Few more days to go..and God's willing, I would be home-run.

Ya Allah, mudahkanlah urusan hambaMu ini..Amin.

ONCE...in 100 years; 11.11.11 my birthday !!!

Today, 11 Nov 2011 aka 11.11.11, I celebrated my 18th birthday for the 16th times !!!  Never thought about it being once in every 100 years until a friend posted on my FB.

It is one of the best birthday I've had so far.  It touched me when I received an SMS at 10pm last nite asking me to get ready to go out.  Apparently, my close friends organizing a small birthday party for me at Garden.  Thank you Eka for remembering, Arman for organizing, Swafee for the cake, Herfa for the time, Azhar for the effort and Dr Hasan for joining.  They are my buddies !!!

Thanks again to Swafee, Eka and Arman for hosting birthday dinner at TGIF few hours ago.  Never had a celebration that spares more than 2 hours before.  This has been almost 24 hours.  Thank you guys..I love you all !!!

Thank you to my brother in Illinois ..my sister-in-law in Miri..my sister in Seremban and of course my mum in Kuala Selangor for the thoughtful wishes.

Just realized that the game we played on Thu was a great one.  I won quite a few...nice present perhaps.

Thank you to all my friends who has sent their wished to me.  Really appreciate it.

In life, we may see someone...be friend to them..some fall in love or stay close...some lost or betrayed...but what important is to treasure the people that treat and accept you the way you are.  Share the joy and sadness together...while the body is still on the earth, cherish the moments...before the body goes beneath the earth...

For all the people out there who celebrate the 11.11.11 either for their birthday, anniversary or whatever...hope you all have the best celebration ever !!!

ONCE...Imagine That

It's Raya's eve and I'm still in Klang Valley.  There has been customer's issue that I've to look into for a while.  Seems like it has been overcome..Alhamdulillah...hope it stays like that for good.

While handling that issue, I watched 'Imagine That'.  A very interesting story about father and his daughter..the father believing in the magical world that the daughter created because it benefited his career.  It was towards the end that I realized that the daughter just want the time with him.  She enjoyed the moments that the father did all the crazy stuffs to get into the magical world and gather business intels for his job.

It has been a while since the last time I saw my kids.  Started with works that I've to do, then I don't feel safe bringing my kids in my car now until I get the car back to good conditions.  It's really hard this year.  I went to this type of job believing that I can do a great job and earn more.  I also believe that 'rezeki' will come..when it is due to you.  He loves and has mercy to all mankind.  Whatever the conditions I'm living in now, He has planned for it.

As a prove to that...I received an SMS two hours ago that made me so relieved.  I've got enough oxygen to survive for another two weeks.  Felt really relieved...thank you God. Syukur...

ONCE...grown ups

This morning I was informed that our colleague had passed away...he is a guy with nothing on his face except smile ! Anytime, anywhere...any situation...smile was part of his accessories.  My condolences to the family of Mr Tony Yeoh On Teong.  R.I.P brother !

I watched Grown Ups after the LPGA @ KLGCC game was suspended due to bad weather.  Entertaining...but what makes me wanna blog here about it was one scene...where Roxanne saw the kids was enjoying the lake with their friends...and she can't throw the rock as she could before...and told Leni that it's better to stay instead of going to Milan...I really do not know what hit me...but I'm touched.  Really touched that I got teary eyes.

I do not know why...just shed the tears and enjoy the movie till the end...perhaps I don't wanna think about it just yet..

ONCE...it ain't always sunshine

Today started in a mixed feelings.  Controlling and stay tough even though it may hurt someone.  Unfortunately, I believed that is the best after what happened last week.  It is needed to remain as the way I thought it was..and to make it, it is again.

Arrived early today in the office and tried to solve few issues, finish up pending activities and ready for new challenges.  New challenge it is !!!  We head out and fight, and as expected...when one thing turns good, the other went wrong...unknowingly.  It's very late before I realized what went wrong.  Nevertheless, there's always other times.

Just like the game named GOLF; learn, unlearn and relearn...do, rectify, make-it...it is a non-stop process, sometimes you're on top...and sometimes you're at the bottom...the most important thing is: DON'T GIVE UP !!  It's true that it ain't always sunshine...but it will always be sunshine...when the black cloud pours it rains or when the wind blow it away...HEADS UP !!!

ONCE...when it all goes well

Last week has been among the great golfing days in my life...my driver worked well..my irons are good..my chippings are great and my putting is fabulous !!! Hit a good score and win some holes as well...and it was really meaningful why I beat my friend who is better in golf before this.

Then again, as the name of the game is GOLF...not everyday has sunshine.  My game went down a bit on Sat...yet, I still won against my other friend who actually introduced golf to me.  It do feel great.  Hope the momentum stays for few more games next week.

Last week also among the most hectic week as it was the quarter closing time.  Tried to push it to meet, but couldn't make it.  On the last day of Sept, I saw additional numbers kicked-in.  Thank God that I'll be getting some...even though not that much...but it is still meaningful.  I'm setting my eyes to get better numbers towards year end.  Hope, it will all goes well...

ONCE...my kids growing

Yesterday was my turn to Raya with my kids.  Great moments as usual.  They are quite independent..good to talk to..have their own opinion which need to be guided.  My golf buddy invited to his house last nite..all of my kids would like to come..but after we came back from Raya at 1830h, they're all sleeping.  Only my youngest son awake at 2000h when I'm about to leave.

The raya gathering was brief..only few of close friends.  My son behave very decently..keeping quiet, relax and not as aggressive as he used to be.  Fortunately, we've lady friends at the house that took care of him while I'm away catching my 'breath'.  Turned out my son vomited..and I didn't bring extra cloth.  Thanks to Sasha to lend him Yasmin's cloth.

Today, on the way back to their mom's, we went to Toys'r'Us.  Gave them total freedom to choose what they wanted and really glad that my daughter chose something useful.  I don't quite agree with my son's earlier choice, but then he chose himself the toy that he has been asking for.  My youngest...whatever he likes.

Then, my daughter opted for the slides to go to the lowest ground before heading home with a Tutty Fruity.  Thank God for all Your blessings.

ONCE...back in town

It feels like it's already Sunday where in fact, it was just Saturday.  Started looking into what I need to do from Mon onwards.  Not that I'm too workaholics but there's lots of things pending before Raya leave.  Have to ensure it all cleared by Mon morning.

My golf buddies are slowly coming back to KL today.  It's been quite a while since the last time we played (was it..? It was just last week !! hahahaha)...well, that was the feelings though.

Raya this year felt very different...it doesn't feel the same.  Perhaps, it's because of my 'excellent' records this Ramadhan ? Or because the event on 2nd Raya ? Or perhaps...both !  Really don't feel like enjoying it.

Having said that, I do hope to see the next Ramadhan...and hoping that I'll do better this time.

ONCE...mengah..

Macam biasa la bila raya...bukan nak kata nafsu makan ke hapa..tapi bila tgk nasi himpit ngan rendang..makan sikit jek, tapi sebab perut dah kecik kut, cepat je mengahnye..pastu lantak aku punya favourite 'chifon + icing', lagi la kan..

raya semalam layan lemang + rendang daging + kuah kacang kerang + ayam masak merah + nasi himpit + dodol...perh..mengah siut...lepas amik adik gua kat airport semalam, ada nasi ngan telur dadar kat umah..layan 2x pinggan...mmg sah naik badan aku nih...kena exercise lebih la lepas ni kut...

this morning, as expected...2-3 kali la aku ke jamban...overall raya cam biasa...cuma ada bende yg aku terasa malas nak layan...and that thing will happen today..we'll see how it goes...

ONCE...raya datang lagi

Setelah sebulan berpuasa, tibalah saat yang ditunggu2 oleh semua umat Islam diseluruh dunia. Menyambut Syawal tiba..bergembira berhari raya bersama sanak saudara.

Aku mengenang puasaku tahun ini...kutahu sejauh mana telah kugapai nikmatnya Ramadhan...cume, sepertinya aku malas untuk memikirkannya terlalu dalam...sampai bilakah aku akan terus begini..?

Kepada semua rakan-rakanku yang bakal meraikan Syawal ini..Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri dan Maaf Zahir Batin...moga selamat pulang ke kampung halaman serta selamat kembali bekerja.

ONCE...Ramadhan once again

It's the time that being waited by all faithful Muslim around the world. I waited with mixed feelings...one, excited to make all the good deeds to tidy-up my messed life recently..two, worried as my performance last year was not impressive at all...

1st day fasting, seems like it creeping me up..numb and slow..but 2nd day pretty good..lively and recovering slowly..hope the momentum maintain throughout the entire Ramadhan...

to all Muslims, welcome to Barakah's month and lets grab all the blessings offered to us..

ONCE...the big one coming...

Last Friday, the one thing that being talk about for the past 2 years has arrived. Finally, it came out !!! Unfortunately, the content is discouraging even though it has been anticipated.

It is time to gather the team officially...crack the brain frantically...finding all possibilities and approaches that may be available...to craft a masterpiece that hopefully will be recognized. To plan and lead the team as I'm expected to provide the direction...share the strategy to win it.

Various strategies being explored...one, as being planned and worked out for long..the other, planted but need to be expedited while the recent one, riskier and have to thread very carefully. Shall I pursue all of them at once...or take only one and put all the efforts in it ?

Tomorrow, will be a long day for me. Meeting to start at 0900 followed with 1030..after lunch at 1430 and continued at 1600...if invited officially, dinner at 1800 and perhaps call it a day by 2300 or so...

ONCE...hours to kill at KKIA part 3

It was 1815 when I heard my name being called twice. I was so into Angry Bird at that time..so rushing to shutdown and chase the gate, I hold my bags on each shoulders and notebook at my hand, and rush to the gate...only to find that nobody was there !!! Have I missed my flight ?!!

I asked the PIC, he asked me, "Do you know that your flight delayed to 12 midnight ? Please go to Counter 10 to change your flight". So, I did and they suggested flight at 2120. I argued saying that I tried to change to earlier flight when I checked-in at 1430 but denied...and now to extend another 4 hours ? He said that at that time, the flights were not delayed yet...which after a while when I asked about reason for delay, he shared that there's a hole in the runway. It was closed for 2 hours in the morning, causing delays to all flights from morning. I just realized how contradicting the facts (when I want to change my flights) when I arrived in KLIA yesterday.

Anyhow, I almost screamed to him since I kinda spent almost half a day in KKIA. He looked puzzled and still reluctant to give me the 2120 boarding pass. He discussed with his colleague and after waiting for about 10 minutes (having a view of airasia's staff bending..but facing her, but her colleagues are having a really nice view though..and he smiled to me when he passed by..hahahaha), I got my boarding pass for 1855.

And again, I'm rushing to go back in and this time, Immigration asked me for the visitor's slip (or whatever-the-name-is). I told her that I checked-in earlier, and I just came back to change my flights. To make it 'better', they just changed shift ! So the guy that validate me has went back. Her officer asked to check the system, and then only I was cleared.

I've 15 minutes to catch the plane (as that's how the counter guy portrayed to me..'be quick..')..and nobody queuing at the gate. Apparently, it was delayed to 1920. And this time for real, 1920 boarding and at about 2200 I touched down at LCCT. And I must say, that flight was the most soft-landed, time consuming touch down I ever experienced with AirAsia. Dunno kudos or damn shall be the good word for it.

ONCE...hours to kill at KKIA part 2

I discovered a little bit more about this terminal. Apparently, there's also Gate 3 and 4 with a lot of empty spaces for 200 people standing comfortably. There's also Famous Amos stall and another one (lazy to check it out) next to it.

The smoking room here happen to illustrate how low cost the terminal is and how low smokers being treated here. Torn-out seats, no proper ventilation, dirty on the wall and floor...not sure whether it is poorly maintained or by-design. Smokers would probably think twice or perhaps for heavy one, it doesn't matter at all.

Flight to JB just being boarded and it leaves the terminal empty and not as noisy as it was. It also provided me with a new life (for my battery actually) as it was forced to hibernate while I'm chasing the level at Angry Birds. And by now, I've an hour to kill before flying back to KL...provided my flight is not delayed...

ONCE...hours to kill at KKIA

I'm telling you, it's not easy to kill off 4 hours at Terminal 2, KKIA. Nothing much exciting to do..well, what you can expect for low-cost terminal aye ? And why am I so not stupid arriving here 4 hours earlier ?

Well, I had to check-out at 1300 just now. It's quite heavy to carry my bag to Suria Sabah to catch KL Gangster or Green Lantern. What more to carry them to do some souvenir shopping ! Plus, I've done my souvenirs shopping last Feb.

It's kinda crowded in here. People waiting for their flights...flight delayed (AK5107 to KL was delayed for an hour), and I think these human sapien are for 3 different flights. And I'm the first one to check-in for my flight (based on the low-cost efficient paper-based system used by AirAsia).

Consider myself lucky to have a nice spot at Asian Delight Panettone..small table for two (one for my bags and one for me), facing the gate where I can see various type of people killing their time waiting..and see the coming or leaving planes (now it's empty)...just that I've close to 2 hours battery time and the nearest outlet was conquered by sleeping Ahso.

Let's talk about Departure Hall, Terminal 2 KKIA. It has 2 gates only; Gate 1 for Hote Seat and Gate 2 for General. There's Eraman duty free shop and Made in Sabah souvenir shop with Royal Selangor in it. There's also Exotic Leather House; handbag stall, jewelry (crystals and stuffs) stall and Asian Delight Panettone; the only cuisine shop. It has close to 250 benches with 60 seats at Asian Delight Panettone and ample space that can fit 100 people standing comfortably.

Guess, that's all for now..wanna hit Angry Birds to kill of some more hours...

ONCE...MCB

I went to MCB training on 27 - 28 May 2011. I know what it meant, why it was conducted in that manner and what do I suppose to get. Perhaps, the crowd play a role...or perhaps it depends on my heart's condition.

I understand the meaning...I understand the direction...I understand where to go...and I do understand how to go about it...

Does understanding alone enough ? Definitely not aye ? When to start ? Now is it ? So, what are you waiting for..?

ONCE...good thing about golf

Today, I found one thing good about golf. Not that this is the only one, but this one I discovered by myself. It's a game where you need to look deep in your wrong-doings, and finding ways to fix it...until you find it and fix it.

Sometimes, we do get frustrated when after so many attempts, we are still not able to fix it. Worst...when we do not have any idea on what went wrong (we thought we have done it all right), and how to fix it.

It also remind us that being human, we will forget, if it doesn't get into habit. Even once it becomes a habit, it's either a good one or a bad one.

However, when we do find the way...and it proves working and you fixed it...it really sweet. I treasure it alot this afternoon. Syukur...

ONCE...justifying business sense

Nowadays, it ain't easy to do sales. In MB, closing sales does not call for real celebration. The way we are measured, we have to follow thru till the end i.e. till project or contract closure. Sometimes, winning project give you more headache than pleasure.

Getting internal team to understand on why AM being so demanding is a tall order. I had one team telling me that my request does not bring lots of business sense for their investment. Out of curiosity, I'm wondering why do I have their team in play for that. Won't it be easier if I outsource the whole thing and manage it on my own ?

With such mentality exist in our organization, how can we excel and surpass all other competition ? It is the same like a golf swing. The rhythm of back-swing, weight transfer, down-swing and follow-thru..all has to be synchronize. If the body turn earlier than the time the clubhead reached the ball, you would have a terrible shot ! Hit it with the right foot, it'll go top and may just go few feet away.

To have a perfect shot, everything should be synchronized. Same here, mission statement was set but it was not ingrain in every soul within the organization.

The incident happen quite frequent to me and sometimes...I must say...it is really demoralizing.

ONCE...Workers Day 2011

It's been quite a long weekend. Quite a pack weekend though. On Sat, I was forced to participate in KTTM Bowling tournament. Last played was last year's MSRC's tournament. And as usual, I had to let my team members back me up for a better score hahahaha. We got 2nd for Invitational.

On Sun, I played for Monthly Medal at Impian Kajang. Morning started quite disturbing with my arms aching because of bowling, and my flight member shared that he do not want to play as they changed our flight members. Nevertheless, we had the same team and hit it to the green.

It started off not so bad..but I still had alot to do. Need to improve my drivers and maintaining my rhythm. What's most important, I am not the last anymore huhu..!!

And today, finishing off whatever pending about my work. Tomorrow, will start another interesting journey.

ONCE...am I losing it ?

It has been 4 months since I became full-time AM. The challenges are totally different. The need to be on top of things..coverage, understanding, so on and so forth. Time seems very short. Plus, balancing between my new hobby is quite challenging as well. Improving it, containing it..and of course, cherishing it.

Having new friends...bonding with them..sharing and caring. Knowing peoples behavior..identify and ways dealing with them. Dealing with losses and small victories. Hoping and looking forward when the time comes for my victory.

ONCE...quarter closing

Last Thu 31 Mar 2011, I had my first experience facing quarter closing. Looking for numbers to commit. Very challenging when you need to capture and ensuring all documents in order. It was bit late actually. But, Alhamdulillah, if all goes well..by Mon morning should reflect quite good.

Anyway, learnt good lessons. Now, I know how it all work..what is required..what need to be done..and when it need to be done. For this coming quarter, I would need to change my strategy a bit. After all, the shocking news on Fri 1 Apr may allow my strategy to goes well even though I may lost quite a lot.

For all its worth...will work towards a better closing coming Jun.

ONCE...who would know ? (once more..)

Almost a month...and I called it off. Either I've higher expectations, or no expectations, or demanding, or reluctant to entertain such attention demanded upon me...what have I become ? Am I at fault ? Am I selfish ?

Do I care about what people said to me ? Nope. Just like what my long-lost friend that prefer to remain that way, still blaming me after all these years. I'm not sure what I do wrong with her, but if that's the way she wanted it...doesn't require a bad fella like me to become her friend, so be it.

Enough with boring stories..last Friday I've got my 2nd PO !! huhu...seems like I got my POs every Friday..should I be looking forward for the coming Friday ? Work hard, play hard !!

O Allah, guide me please...

ONCE...my 1st PO

Fri 11 Feb 2011 (11022011), I got my first PO !!! At first I kinda puzzled to see a fax copy of my quotation on my table. At the back, was a letter with the customer's letterhead with summary of my quotation. I thought '..is this a PO or what ?'. I looked for its reference and it written 'PO Ref No:..' !

I showed it to my boss, my director and closed friends. Now only I'm feeling like a real AM ! Even though the amount is not that big, am hoping for more POs to come with bigger values of course.

Thank you God..syukur Alhamdulillah...

ONCE...who would know ?

Last Thu, I went to my best friend's house for a so-called house warming. Turnout there's different agenda ! At first, I kinda reluctant..told him that but since he insisted, I just went to get myself a free lunch.

Turned out..not as bad as I expected. In fact, I'm not quite sure what is happening to me now. Kinda keep thinking..looking forward..but still unsure whether I'm really up for it or not. Someone dear to me is having mixed feeling about all this. Whether all the bad experiences made the circumstances as such, or some feelings left untold or unsure.

Is it happening too fast ? Am I kinda needed one ? Or Allah has His own way of showing me the path ? O Allah...I'm leaving it all to You as You are The All Knowing of everything.

ONCE...cabaran 2011

Permulaan 2011 agak menarik...gear 1 yg terlalu lama pada penghujung 2010 dan sukar untuk dinaikkan ke gear 2...namun, pada 2011 expectations and reality seems to move very fast..suddenly, my gear is already on 4 !!! already speeding up...things run very fast that I wish, I've more time in this world..

With that, I've got myself the P1 WIMAX and so far it works well...it gave myself some added hours to get things done, checking stuffs, etc...i just need to workout on the distraction i'm getting...really need to work my ass out for it..

all in all, it has good start...hope for it to be forever, but as always...plan for the worse, hope for the best !