ONCE...baik tau atau tak tau ?

Pagi tadi aku mendapat tahu sesuatu yang agak mencengkam jiwa. Bila difikirkan balik, memang aku jenis yang suka untuk tau daripada tak tau. Walaupun menyakitkan, tapi aku tau dan aku mungkin boleh berbuat sesuatu untuk memperbaiki keadaan yang aku tau tu. Dan setakat ni memang Alhamdulillah, aku memang boleh menangani perkara2 tersebut walau sakit macam mana sekalipun apa yang aku tau tu.

Tapi, apakah tiba masa untuk aku cuba untuk tak tau pulak ? Ke buat tak tau ? Apa impaknya ? Kalu cuba taknak tau...aku mungkin akan tau jugak akhirnya. Kalu buat tak tau, lain pulak jadinya.

So, baik tau ke tak tau ?

ONCE...selesai

Alhamdulillah...pagi tadi dah selesai semuanya. Ermmm...pengesahannye la...nak mendapatkan dokumen2 semua mungkin lagi 4-6 minggu. Cam tak paham gak apa yang lama sangat, tapi ntahlah...camne nak maju.

Apa pun, syukur kehadrat Allah kerana hari ini telah dipermudahkan untuk tujuan ini. Bermula dengan SPN yang berjaya disiapkan pagi tadi sebelum pukul 9 pagi, dan pendengaran keputusan yang berlangsung dengan aman. Alhamdulillah....

ONCE...challenging

It's been a week after I came back. Lots of things happen, good and bad. With ongoing Ramadhan, the challenges has been quite interesting and demanding as well. Is today the most challenging ? Perhaps...based on the scenario of the challenges.

Please God guide me. To all my dear Muslim friends...Selamat Berpuasa.

ONCE...things happen for a reason !

Today, all the delegates arrived from KL. And we were treated for dinner by our partner here at Kiruni Restaurant. Guess what ? It was the restaurant-in-the-jungle that I bumped into on Sat during my exploration in the woods ! Things happen for a reason right ? Just that today, there was no POLAR BEAR mascott :( I had planned to take picture with him as the car turned to where I came out that day...perhaps, he had returned to the Artic as it's too sunny here since Sunday hahahahaha...

ONCE...nice weather

Yesterday was not soo sunny. It rains almost whole day...sky was dark. Rain quite heavy in the afternoon...I managed to go out at 2pm. But today was different ! I woke up at 8am and it was sunny skies. No cloud at all. Had my breakfast, that I'm on my foot at 11am with inner shirt and short-sleeve black t-shirt.

Me at the Rohnidyns'ka vul

When I tested the sun this morning, it's typical summer...the sun doesn't mean a thing. It's windy and quite chilled. But, as I walked..the sun was right above me and I felt some heat. Guess I'll be tanner once I'm back...there goes my plan to be a little bit fairer. Yesterday's was really challenging...was walking in the woods at Khreschatyi Park. I was walking without knowing where does it end...where would I came out. Till I found a building...and near the fence I saw white hairy thing ! Quite big !

Restaurant in the Jungle with Polar Bear

I felt relieved to know that it's a restaurant. Quite exclusive I guess. Then, it took quite a walk to get to Dynamo Stadium. I bummed into an archery post where the guy was shaking his head when I asked him how to go to Dynamo Stadium. He looked at my shoes and gave me the direction. And only today that I noticed that the map does show the route that I took. If only I noticed it earlier. I walked about 3 hours yesterday..about same time on Fri nite and again today.

But, today not so much walking. I spend about 3 hours at the park alone...reading ! I was at the park at Tereschenkivs'ka vul, near T. Shevchenko University. The steets was filled with half a dozen of museums.

Me in-front of T. Shevchenko University

After finishing my book which I bought 4 days ago, I make my way heading back to the hotel. As I glanced at the map, am interested to check out the Museum of Science and Natural History. When I arrived there, I almost resign from going in. The emblem says "National Geological Museum" and another "Institute of Geology"...nothing on science !!! But, what the heck ! Paid 15 uah, and I spent about an hour in there. Quite interesting ! At the Birds section, they preserved lots of birds...and they tag bears the year. Some dated like 1728...but I'm not sure wheather the bird was preserved that old or it was first found that year. Lemme improve the language then perhaps, I get better picture.

Owl at the museum

Mammoth. Other dinasours' bones are available too.

Small aquarium at the Sea section. Beautiful corals isn't it ?

These is supposed to be one picture...dunno how to merge it in Blogger and I'm not good at manipulating pictures. This is the picture of ancient city of Kiev (i guess hahahaha).

Then, I head back to the hotel. The pic below was taken yesterday.

It's the Monument of Independence at Khreschatyk vul. The road was closed during weekends and there's lots of people there. Some showing their dancing skills, some singing, etc. Creative ways to get some money

The best one for me today was this pic...

'Running sign' ? I dunno what it means..seen few of this here.

My Berahims are running out quite fast. The delegates are coming next week. Just now, wanted to do some ironing, so I requested for iron board and iron. Apparently, they don't send you one. There's an ironing room ! And guess what ?! It was besides my room hahahaha. Done with my ironing...wanna take some shower afterwards...and get ready to bed.

Da Svedaniya !

ONCE...not soo summer

It's 22C on a day and about 17C at nite. Yesterday, I walked 3 hours, all the major and minor roads...based on the map collected at the hotel. Regained my cyrillic which i planned to polish while i'm here.

I planned to go to the park today...spend some time reading...then look for some souveniers before head back to the hotel. Will be spending the nite in the hotel reading and polishing.

Had quite interesting experiences yesterday. In here, you might find money wrapped in plastic bag on the street. But, don't you ever...ever take it !!! Even if you see that it's dropped from the guy in-front of you. It's a scam ! If you take, and tried to return it to the guy, he will say there's another package and accused you of taking it. Then, a cop (his friend actually) will appear and they will start talking and you don't understand a word...the cop will asked for you passport and wallet...and they will take whatever in your wallet (since of course, you don't want the hassle to go to the police station in this foreign country).

It does happen to me that way yesterday. Someone suddenly walked besides me...then with a surprised expression, he collected the money. I just walked like no body's business and after a while i looked back. Nothing happen to him ! It happened twice. Either these guys are really lucky to walk away with those money...or they're part of it.

Another one, this guy talked to me and I only managed to pick-up "..cigarette..". So, I said I don't understand but here you go. You know what ? He repeated himself in English (that time he has held the cigarette and i'm ready to light it up for him). I said "it's fine..you can take it...". Then I get my ass out of there...

Well...hungry...makan time !!!

ONCE...demanding ?

Am I too demanding ? Was it too hard to understand what I want, what I feel and what I expect ? Or has I turned to be a person that is too demanding...sometimes unnecessary and even unthinkable that I don't even believe myself behaving like that.

Hmmmmmm.................

ONCE...Auny's Birthday

Last sat was Auny's birthday. I brought them to watch Ice Age 3...they loved it soo much. Then, have some Baskin Robbin and head to Popular to find her birthday present. I wanted to give her a book that she wants.

She said she wanted to be a scientist (must be the microscope that I bought her last month). When I asked her why...as usual 'Don't know !' was her answer. I thought, never mind...if she wants to be a scientist, I'll guide her to be one. Then we looked for a science related book...quite heavy though the books that I found...even it's pictorial but would blow the interest. So, I bought one that is quite simple...and told her to read thru then by next week we'll discuss.

Well...had great time with them...until late afternoon when she bombarded me with so many questions. Hmmm....

ONCE...9th July 2009 !!!

That day suppose to be D-Day ! Took 2 days leave (but the other half-day considered gone as I went to this tender briefing). That day, went smooth initially...as decision about to be made..in fact, it has been concluded, decision has been reached..just waiting for the announcement.

As the honorable person started his opening for the decision, this one person interrupted. Made the honorable person annoyed and postponed the decision. WTF ?!!! I'm really speechless at that time. I just want to get it over with so that it's clear for both parties.

I prayed the night before and on that morning so that everything went smooth. I thanked God as the decision about to be announced...guess He wants me to be patience a little bit longer...

ONCE...finally ?

I received the notice today...Insya-Allah next mon will be official and final.  I must say I'm shocked to see the 'demand'.  Took me a while before I can calm down myself.  In the afternoon, received a message that those are just standard and we shall discuss on mon peacefully.  Am glad...I hope everything would be in peace and harmony.

ONCE...English as compulsary subject for SPM ?

This is the latest news that is debated extensively among the academicians, policy makers, politicians and citizens.  It is really delicate to me.  The comments from some people also make me wanna puke.

Why they have to use '...students environment especially rural areas, estate will make it harder for them to learn english..the environment does not support...'.  What the heck man ?!!!  I believed they should think further on how to create the environment in those areas.  Perhaps, few NGOs or voluntary groups can go to those areas and coach or guide the students and perhaps the community at that area as well.  Govt should allocate some funds for such activities be it via govt agencies or funds for NGOs to do their work.

Witholding such decision will only held the country back.  We're already lacking and behind time in meeting the Vision 2020 (developed country), now we wanna slow down ?  We need to think more on how to resolve and mitigate the potential problems and not stalling the progress by stopping good initiatives.

ONCE...signoffs !!!

Alhamdulillah...last Thu 30 Apr 2009 was really something.  Had a great meeting in the morning till noon.  Then I received a call asking me to go to Putrajaya if I want it to get the signoff.  Otherwise, I need to wait for another month !

Rushed to Putrajaya..waited for an hour.  Then she came and asked for the documents.  Told her that it was with her.  Waited another 1/2 hour for her staffs to look for the documents.  Help the PA to put the sticker and then I showed her each page that she needed to sign.  Hehehe..she complaint that its too many to be signed (I did told her to exercise her hand as there's a lot to be signed...).

Shared the good news with the people back in the office...and next, they can start working to get the payment.  Finally...few mils coming to MB's coffers..yeay !

ONCE...nightmare ?

Had a nightmare last nite.  Woke-up at 4.30 am...then kinda afraid to sleep as when I just closed my eyes (not even sleep yet), it kinda continued.  But, since it's still far from dawn, nuthin la kut.

Had a good start in the morning (yesterday)...around 10 am received unpleasant news..but it's manageable (just need to be there..that's the problem). At 11 am another unpleasant but managed to sort it out (at least from my view at that time).  11.40 am really had a bad news !!!  Made me feel bad for the rest of my day (till now !!!).

Went to LP but couldn't find her.  'Meeting with Director' as her SMS replied.  The 'bad news' became milder at noon and at around 5 pm seems like back to normal.  But, I've got another troubling news...decided to do it remotely instead of doing it in the office.

Somehow...the 'bad news' turned really ugly around 8pm...being asking myself on what went wrong.  Does it has to be that way ?  I don't want it to be that way...and I don't want to lose it at all...how hard and how painful...I'd make it up...as it is too precious for me...

ONCE...tpt orang

Tengah bulan Mac ari tuh aku pergi ke Eropah Timur...ada keje skek...ni la baru dpt kumpul gambar2 yang nak dipostkan...sekadar memoir ahaks...

Minum kopi ngan makan pastry kat Amsterdam...mmg purposely pegi situ utk minum kopi jek...hehehehe....

Pemandangan malam di Crishatic Road (entah betul ke idak ngejanye)..sejuknye nauzubillah..max dlm 3 Celcius jek...telinga sampai naik beku lah kirenye..hari ke-4 baru dpt beli glove...tahan la sikit...topi yg buleh tutup tinga tu ada nak beli kat adidas..belakang itu kad tarak lepas (besoknya aku taruk la itu bank..debit card maa...not empty somemore...) belakang gua beli topi kampung punya...gerai kat metro station...jadiksla kan...

Ini la pejabat sementara gua...mmg seminggu tuh bertie dan berkot jelah...jenuh menepis awek2 tempatan yang ingin berkenalan (hahaha..perasan poyo !)

Pemandangan unik...tak tau la sebab apa yg depa bubuh mangga bebanyak nih...membacanya buleh..paham je belum..nanti la kalu pegi lagi insya-Allah dah buleh paham..tanya org situ dah tak reti cakap omputih plak..menariknya tpt depa nih, bersih...park dia terjaga...satu puntung rokok pun takde...depa betul2 jaga la..mana yg smoke tuh...duduk tepi dustbin, buang dlm tong sampah...

Malam sebelum balik tuh...depa bawak tengok ballet kat National Opera House...Swan Lake...kirenye terkenal lah...pertama kali teman nengok ballet nih...kabornye, kat Mesia nih takde ballet performance cenggitu...ada pun setakat nari2 ballet budak2 sekolah...satu jek yg teman geli nengok ballet nih...seluar lelakinye...ish...

Tak tau la nampak ke tak...gua punya nampak...nih dah nak balik...was snowing...patutnya dah abis winter..tapi Allah Maha Kaya, dia kata snow...maka snow lah iye....

Nak balik dah la nih...dasat tak opis teman..? Siap ada bendera ngan peta sekali...kat mesia pun tarak camni hehehhe....

Time nak balik...snowing the whole day...pastu dpt lak jalan2 kat taman bersalji....kirenye impian terlaksana sudah...nak pegi time winter and tgk snow...ingat dpt kat Korea ari tuh..belakang dpt kat Eropah Timur...Alhamdulillah....

ONCE...loosing my steam ?

This week has been really challenging.  From Mon till today...i know that late for meeting is not forgivable especially the kind of customer I'm managing (cardinal sin according to my HoS)...and late to come to project office is another.  Punctuality !

Tue, kinda down knowing the fact that I need to change.  As much as I hated it, I have no choice but to join the paradigm which is to 'cover your ass' and 'the hell with others as long as my ass is covered'.  Pretty fucked-up mentality but that's the reality.  It's hurt when all the good things that you've done...for years...gone just for one (I like to call it simple or silly) mistakes.  

Today, I really felt like loosing the steam.  If not for the interest of the customer and the nation on the project that I'm managing...I might have just walk-off.  Suddenly I'm seriously thinking about updating my resume and start flying it around.  I hate to do it...and hate to think about covering my ass first in doing my work...but once it has impacted my reputations...I guess I better do something before it is really to late.

ONCE...syukur !

I came back to Malaysia on 24 Mar 2009...suddenly received calls on my previous project...seems like having a big issue.  Then, I get myself waiting by the street till my friend fetch me to Putrajaya.  I asked the guy on what exactly the issue...to my (not so) surprise..there's none.  We waited for the HoS to arrive then we started the meeting.  Few things that I need to do, but it went well.  

Went back to office that noon, prepared some documents and then proceed for Appreciation Dinner hosted by the company.  Since all the bosses are there (expected already), updated them on the trip, the outcome and the fun that we had hehehe...

That nite also I had some shocking news.  Eventhough some of it was expected...and some within my plan...but didn't think that it might happen sooner than I thought.  Did hope for some time but guess it's best to just do it.  And Allah Maha Kaya, Maha Pemurah dan Maha Mengetahui.  Met my long lost friend and it helped alot.  Dipermudahkan urusan...syukur Alhamdulillah.

ONCE...sejuk woi !!!

It's been almost a week since I arrived here.  Finally, I felt the winter experiences...eventhough it's coming to an end, but still...got wet snow yesterday..and my first shadow as well.  Was getting about 1-4 C in the day and perhaps -1 C at nite.

Yesterday we finished earlier..so we walked at the park, ride the train and had dinner at Arabic restaurant.  The day before we had egg curry and it really made us warmer.  Perhaps, we will go there again tonite.

It's interesting to see their culture..the way they work, the way they dress and the way they communicate and behave.  Like old saying, "Jauh perjalanan, luas pemandangan".  Alhamdulillah, my wish to have a winter experience (eventhough didn't get the snow experience yet), but Insya-Allah kalu ada rezeki...dpt la...

ONCE...I'm losing my breath !

This week has been quite a week.  Been running here and there, chasing people from multiple sites.  Been walking alot too (soon I'll get slimmer..hahaha..).  Alhamdulillah, things has worked out fine.  Flights, hotels, winter clothes, arrangements, visas, currencies and docs.  Now just need to go back and pack slowly.

Bit tired (errr alot actually) but it has been both interesting and challenging.  Tomorrow, spend some time with the kids...then evening head to KLIA.  Guess, I just catch up with my resting on the plane.

ONCE...roasted !

It was 4 Mar.  Received long SMS from boss, arrived at SH at around 1 am.  He's damn serious this time.  Being grilled till 4 am and I've a meeting at 9 in Semarak.  When I decided previously, shared with closed friends esp boss and I've peaceful mind.  Clear direction and plan on how to move forward.  But after being grilled, i felt my head so heavy.  I think that is what people called 'stress'.

On the 5 Mar, he called for a 'brilliant idea'!  I said we talked once I arrived.  He shared the logic and basically he wanted me to go back.  I can see that it impacted him alot, he's not ready, he felt guilty and responsible eventhough I explained that he has no part at all in the whole thing.

But I decided to close my eyes and just follow his advice when RE shared that he's going to quit his MBA.  Damn ! I would feel guilty my whole life man ! It's not what I wanted.  Too many people that I love are at stake with my decision.  He was soo happy when I told him about my decision.  That nite with Pak Ngah lasted till 3 am.  My head was soo heavy and I just don't know why.  Friday nite, dinner with him...talked about the issue..felt a little relieved (had 3 hours sleep before that).  No doubt, my decision break lots of hearts.

Spend the weekend at Kg, came back...my heart not in its peaceful state.  Then I know that it doesn't work.  I tried to put it at ease, but I just can't.  As mom's advice, technicalities...then we talked.  Kinda agreed, amicably and harmony.

Arrived at SH at 1am last nite (or rather this morning), grilled again.  Till 5 am.  Only manage to fall asleep at around 6 plus and woke-up at 3 pm !!!  Seriously, kinda lost.  Know what I want, believed its the best...saw the consequences...seing the plan and believed that I can execute it well.

Above all that, I prayed to God to guide me, to give me strength to endure all this.  No doubt, one after another bombshell keep coming to me...is it a test for my failure ?  Is it a test to see whether I prevail ?  Ya Allah...guide me please...

ONCE...interesting day

It is really an interesting day today.  Started early morning...did the '20 minutes plan' thingy but with the results today...either need to be perfected or poor planning altogether.

The meeting in the morning was cancelled, then got invitation for the appreciation lunch.  Am cracking my head on what did I do in between of that.  Man !!! Time really flies today.  Lunch went well with some exciting news (ermm...or gather hints on the news), after that it started to rumble a bit.  Misunderstood on one meeting in MV.  Rushed there and facing the cold faces from few people.  I was thinking that my good performance might go to the drain.

Talked with the CEO, hearing his gruntings, convinced him to give me a chance to prove that we can meet his expectations, then head back to HQ.  Had a chat with the boss...being adviced and reprimanded (in a very suttle way).  Luckily on the rumble at MV he's ok with it.  Assured him that I'll do as what I promised to the CEO then went to the 2nd boss.  Again backed by him, now I know how to play the game.

On the news, it's very exciting.  Just the timing wasn't sure.  Anyway, life is great...! Allah is The Most Greatest !