ONCE...kebesaran-Nya

Segalanya bermula pada hari Isnin. Dikejutkan dgn berita kematian Pak Long (suami babysitter) Isnin pagi. Aku singgah la sekejap, hadiahkan Fatihah..dan kemudian bergegas utk interview di Sri Hartamas. Alhamdulillah segalanya berjalan lancar. Siap diwar2kan utk tunggakan sekali. Apapun, tunggu je la cek kat tangan..tak perlu berangan.

Mengkala jadual kerja aku amat fleksibel (ikut suka aku!), maka aku la yg kena jaga anak2 Selasa dan Rabu. Tapi Rabu 1/2 day je la..ada meeting di TMRD. Dan syukur lagi, Selasa pagi MB offer. Agreed on the package, need to confirm to report duty on 16th Dec. Maka kena la gi opis, jumpa LC. Redha dia dgn berita yg aku bawak. Tapi, ptg tuh panjang jugak la sembang ngan dia. Asking me to not to let go my shares. I'll think about it..

Dan t/hari tadi, aku gi amik letter of offer dari MB. Bakal termeterailah satu pengembaraan baru untuk aku. Dan balik dari Jumaat, gatal gi singgah Subang Parade, termasuk lak dlm MPH...dan terbelilah akan saya sebuah buku bertajuk "Project Management" from McGraw-Hill Professional Education Series.

"Ya Allah...janganlah Engkau lalaikan aku dalam nikmat-Mu. Bimbinglah aku kejalan yang Engkau redhai..amin."

ONCE...more Malaysian's animation

Check out another good quality animation works by Malaysian here. Expected to be completed by end of 2007, it shall be a hit !

I've downloaded the sneak peaks and man !!! Such details on the greens..expressions..dusts.. Love it when Malaysian team up and work together and deliver what Dreamworks or Pixar people has produced all this while. Yet, this team delivers it in much much tiny budget compared to them. I hope and pray they'll succeed.

To all Malaysians especially the rich ones..come and contribute (i.e. invest or sponsor or give). Make it a success. Together !

ONCE...keletah anakku

Scene : Dalam kereta, balik dari amik ubat dan beli burger.
Waktu : Sabtu malam

   Daughter   : pokok dia minum ayaq ujan...
   Me             : pokok makan apa ?
   Daughter   : pokok tak makan...
   Me             : pokok cucuk butt tak ? (means : berak)
   Daughter   : tak...
   Me             : kenapa ?
   Daughter   : sebab dia takde toilet bowl...
   Me             : hahahahaha....

ONCE...Gubra

Hari Sabtu lepas aku baru berpeluang utk menonton Gubra bersama isteri tercinta. Asalnya aku nih buleh kata amatla teruja utk menonton Gubra selepas menonton Sepet satu ketika dahulu. Namun, setelah suku pertama cerita tersebut, aku terasa mual2 dan meloya utk meneruskan pertontonan.

Mana mungkin seorg rakyat Malaysia (tak kira bangsa ! cuma dlm Gubra, ia adalah lelaki Cina) berjalan sesuka hati tanpa baju di hospital (melainkan dia pesakit mental). Apatah lagi, dia bukannya pesakit ! Dan mana mungkin seorg gadis/wanita Melayu akan dengan selamba badaknya membuangkan bulu didada seorang lelaki yg baru saja dikenalinya beberapa minit yg lalu. Sementalah filem ini digembar-gemburkan sebagai mencerminkan budaya Malaysia ! Maka itulah yg membuatkan saya mesti memblog mengenai Gubra.

Penceritaan hubungan berlainan kaum tidak menjadi masalah pada saya. Tetapi adegan memualkan di hospital dimana Orked membuang bulu di dada Alan itu yg tidak manis. Itu bukan budaya rakyat Malaysia dan semestinya bukan budaya MELAYU !!! Itu mungkin budaya Yasmin, atau dia terpandang sekali atau dua dan saya percaya kalau adapun cume dibandar besar yg rakyat Melayunya telah diperbaratkan. Akan tetapi, ianya tidak mungkin menggambarkan walau 0.01% budaya rakyat Malaysia.

Cerita dlm Gubra tidak menggambarkan budaya Malaysia seluruhnya. Maka tidak wajar ianya diwar2kan sbg perintis filem yg mempamer/mencemarkan budaya Malaysia. Tidak dinafikan terdapat pengajaran di penghujung cerita. Cuma jika org yg mual dan loya di pertengahan cerita tidak sanggup meneruskannya, rugilah org itu dan rugi jugalah Yasmin dlm menyampaikan ceritanya secara menyeluruh.

Apakah dlm kita ingin mengglobalkan wayang kita, kita perlu membudayakan apa yg ada dibarat atau dinegara lain? Apakah kerana rasa kekitaan pada masyarakat asinglah yg membolehkan filem2 Yasmin mendapat pengiktirafan diluar negara ? Dlm mematangkan pemikiran rakyat Malaysia dlm filem melayu, apakah kita perlu melihat maksud tersirat dlm filem tersebut walaupun yg tersuratnya cukup menjijikkan, terpesong jauh dari budaya biasa masyarakat setempat ? Atau mungkin cara penggembar-gemburan filem itu yg mengundang kemarahan (talking about market positioning) ?

Aku hampir memboikot filem2 Yasmin selepas Gubra, tetapi rasanya elok dinilai filem2 yg akan datang sebelum membuat kesimpulan tentang pemikiran dan budaya Yasmin. Mokhsen...nantikanlah...

7 Lessons From Japanese Business Culture

This article was posted in Promuda's Discussion Group.

After reading it, I can say that the culture is not too far from the Malay. Not the modern one though (i.e. city-type Malay culture), but the traditional one. The one that we can still see in villages, old folks..away from the cities.

Malacca was once, known throughout the world. Malay merchants were prosperous. The thing is, is there any research done on their business traits and culture that we as Malay especially can be proud of and use it profusely instead of looking for others to adapt ? It's not that I'm against the article. It's good that we learn from others, take and adapt the good part of it for our benefits..but my curiousity is how about ours ?

ONCE...pasal berkawan

Bila lepak kat lab, antara salah satu topik yg hangat dibincangkan adalah pasal berkawan. Perbezaan antara kawan dan sahabat. Bagaimana utk mengenal kawan/sahabat. Dan setelah kenal sikap, sifat dan perangai kawan dan masing2 boleh terima kekurangan dan kelemahan yg lain, maka insya-Allah lamalah persahabatan itu.

Aku teringatkan ayat2 yg aku selalu terlepas bila sembang ngan foo. Mungkin sebab dia mmg tak penah amik ati (atau dia mmg terer simpan dari aku) yg membuatkan aku pun tak tahu dimana batasnya. Perkara ni mmg selalu aku alami dan semacam aku tak pernah belajar.

Setiap kali aku berkawan rapat, pastinya akan ada insiden yg mencemarkan persahabatan tersebut. Sepatutnya, disitulah yg akan membuatkan kita lebih kenal kawan/sahabat kita. Tetapi selalunya yg terjadi, aku dikeluarkan terus dari database mereka. Mana yg tidak, terus menjadi sahabat hingga kini.

Aku cuba belajar. Dgn client, long-lost junior, kawan2 baru yg lain. Hatiku berdetik "..jaga2 sikit cakap tu..kita tak tau diorang buleh terima ke tidak..". Tapi kalu tidak diuji, kita takkan tahu. Jadi kalu mahu menjadikan sahabat, harus tau dimana batas2nya. Perlu tau dimana marahnya, dimana sukanya, dimana dukanya, dimana halusnya, dimana warasnya dan dimana sanggupnya. Dan pastinya utk mengenal kawan, perlukan masa yg lama. Tidak mungkin sehari dua ataupun 3-4 bulan. Mungkin makan tahun.

Dlm keadaan aku sekarang, bolehlah utk dikenalpasti dgn lebih dlm lagi. Siapa kawan masa senang, siapa kawan masa susah, siapa kawan masa suka, siapa kawan masa duka, siapa kawan boleh berahsia, siapa kawan utk berseloka, siapa kawan utk berbicara, siapa kawan utk meluah rasa, siapa kawan utk didengar jua, siapa kawan utk dikenang saje.

Pada rakan taulan, kawan-kawan dan sahabat, Selamat Hari Raya dan mohon maaf atas tersalah kata, terkasar bahasa, terkurang ajar dan terlanjur perbuatan. Serta halalkan mana yg termakan dan terminum. Semoga bahgia di Hari Lebaran.

ONCE...5 hari nak raya !

Raya kali ini sungguh bermakna buat aku dan keluarga. Emm...lebih2 lagi buat aku la. Raya kali ini cukup sederhana. Terharu jugak bila mama bagi baju raya..dan tak kurang jugak terpikir cam nak rasa terhina atau rendah diri bila baba cakap pasal fakir miskin. Tapi, aku rasa tak perlulah. Selama ni pun aku makan minum kat umah tu, dia gak yg bayar. Satu sen pun aku tak kuar. Dan mmg betul pun, redha je lah.

Namun aku bersyukur. Ujian ini harapnya membuatkan aku lebih berhati2 berbelanja. Ujian ini juga membolehkan aku menilai nilai RM vs rakan/kawan/sahabat. Mmg perit ujian ni, tapi Allah takkan menurunkan sesuatu ujian itu kepada hambaNya melainkan Dia tahu hambaNya itu mampu menghadapinya. Dan semestinya Dia Maha Mengetahui ! Cuma kita jgn mudah putus asa dan putus harapan. Usaha mesti diteruskan.

Berkat usaha dan doa, dan juga barakah bulan Ramadhan, aku temui beberapa jalan yg dgn izinNya jua, boleh merungkai permasalahan ekonomi dan kewangan yg aku hadapi sekarang. Untuk memastikan aku mendapatkannya, aku akan berusaha lebih lagi..dan kemudian, serahkan segala-galanya atas ketentuan Dia yg Maha Esa.

Salam Aidilfitri untuk semua. Maaf zahir dan batin. Selamat beraya di rantauan Joe (maaf aku tak dpt antar kuih raya).

ONCE...an opportunity

A friend of mine sent me this 20 Smart Companies to Start Now. As I scroll down the article, something made my eyes gleaned as I read this:

Text Ads on the Fly
The Investor: Charles Moldow, venture partner, Foundation Capital
What his firm's backed: CarsDirect.com, Netflix, Simply Hired
What he wants now:: Text-messaging software that allows local merchants to send offers to mobile phones. Some companies already do this in basic form; Moldow's idea would give merchants more control. "This is bringing the blue-light special to your phone," he says. Five or so people could write the code; a sales demon is also needed to enlist merchants. Prove that you can pull this off in one city and Moldow will listen to an expansion plan.
What he'll invest: $5 million for working technology

Just sent him desktopSMS BC's brochure and user manual as well as my sales pitch (so-to-speak). Well, we'll never know what would happen. Has mixed feeling currently. Anyhow, efforts made..now continue prayers (and more efforts of course).

ONCE...1st interview

This morning was my first interview session. 1st in 7 years ! Hahaha...kinda nervous also. But, I guess it went smooth. If any hickups maybe because of min salary expected. Post for IT Exec for PMO. There's 7 candidates, one of them is internal people. Promotion la kirenya. So, 6 ppl for potentially another vacancy (or perhaps it's formality for the internal people only). But, I think there's 2 potential candidate (that can be a threat to me); one from PNB and another from Time. Well, just hope (and pray of course).

After prayer, got an email from Brunei. Said that they're processing my application and asking for testimonials and my expected package. Have asked few close friends to send their testimonials to them. Well, wait and see how it goes.

ONCE...my old camp diaries

Weekend in my hometown, browsing through the bookshelf I saw my 2 camp diaries. "How did they get here ?". I think I kept it somewhere else. So, I took it out and flipping thru the pages. I found a sheet of paper (maybe one of those camp assignment or something)..and best of all, my 15 years old passport sized photo. Hahahaa...can't really imagine that I was..errmm..that young and slim (and naive also).

These diaries are not the normal ordinary diaries. It started with my first mountain, Ledang in 1993. As my wife said, "too detail !"..hehehe...she must be bored to death with the details inside them. Well, every stop i put it there. So, some it may be hours difference, or by minutes.

The diaries extended from Ledang to every single camping that I went until my time in Kembara. But, not sure whether ITM's camps were in those diaries or different one. However, I've stopped writing the diaries towards my seniority in Kembara. And suddenly, my memory flashed back to the Nuang scene. Nuang has 2 most memorable incidents to me.

No 1 when I took my coursemate and junior, that's where I really find out who's who my real friend. Friend that can reason or not. No doubt I have my part on it, but there's so many better ways to solve it. In a more gentleman style I would say.

The second was with juniors. Before that, the first one got my gf-to-be (who's my dearie wife now) and the second got my gf-wanna-be. (it does make me wonder, in my naive look, same boots everyday, simple dress code, yet attract so many girls..well..many that I know..many that I don't then..which I know now..hehehe..). The juniors exp was a bit dark. It almost cost a few lifes. Alhamdulillah, they survived.

How I missed the greens. Smell of the jungle, the leaves, grass, mud, river..sound of crickets, mosquitos and river flow. It has been almost 6 years since my last camp or hike. Wonder when can I hike again...hmm...

ONCE...life, money can't buy !

Arm called before break-fast sharing with me on an opportunity with quite a lucrative deal. So good to be true and damn hell difficult to resist. Roughly; >RM10k net with 30% goes to my wife & 20% to Tabung Haji. But, that's not all. The best part was: they'll settle all my debts !!! So, that we don't have any worries while doing the work.

So, I met him last nite to know more. Especially, what's the catch (there's no free lunch bro !). So, here's the catch: 24 x 7 operations, shift working hours, however, after ur shift, u're on standby mode..response time in 2 hours ! And response time here is not like our standard SLA; response = phone call at least. This one is in the office within 2 hours after the call ! Crazy eh ?!

Meaning; no raya, no balik kg, no shopping, no holiday, no leisure, nothing !!! My instinct before going there was right. Whoever take the job, will become a highly paid slave. Of course, the argument, it's the same kinda job that we do. Late nights, weekends and sometimes during holidays. But, at least to me, I'm in control over my life. Not dictated by someone or something. All the packages are to make you obliged, and setting ur target on the carrots. Ohh..forgot to mentioned. It's was for a f*****ng 5 YEARS contract !

Nah, I'm not going to waste my life like that. 3 years in Dubai would still be ok ;). Right Joe ? (weh..bila daa.. )

ONCE...Ramadhan datang lagi

Alhamdulillah..ramadhan datang lagi...datang dengan penuh rahmat dan keberkatan. Aku baru je pegi deliver sistem yg aku jual kat 1st customer. Training skali...siap ada customization lagi. Jadi, mungkin ada rezeki lebih sikit nanti.

Syukur lagi...di bulan mulia ini. Aku sampaikan salam ramadhan kat bro joe di dubai. Dan tetiba je dia tanya pasal anak aku ada berapa org...berapa tahun. Aku ingatkan dia nak belikan hadiah baju raya ke...Ropenya, ada peluang kat sana. So, nak tau aku akan bawa diorang or camne. Perh..excited mmg la kan. But, he gave me till Thursday. Bini aku plak suruh balik semayang dulu. But, rata2nya redha la.

"Berilah petunjuk pada hamba mu ini ya-Allah." -amin-

ONCE...close encounter with a COBRA !

Foo turunkan aku tepi jalan, lepas balik dari semayang Jumaat. Sambil jalan aku kalut-kalut sikit la simpan hp sume. Pastu, aku toleh la kanan..kat kaki lima tu. Guess what ?!! Cobra tgh panggung kepala dia !!!

Syukur alhamdulillah..sebab masa aku perasan tu kire dah lepas dia dah. So, dia pun sambung jalan balik. Aku pun ingat nak ambik gambar dia. Sekali lagi, kalut-kalut nak adjust camera phone aku..pastu nak cantik kena ambik dekat sikit. Dia tgh sibuk jalan kat kaki lima tu la. Pastu, timbul lak risau. Dibuatnya dia toleh belakang pastu terus terkam aku, dah tak pasal. So, aku pun jalan balik ofis.

Itulah pengalaman pertama aku jumpa ular tedung (rone itam) selain drpd dlm zoo. Panjang dia ada dlm 2 kaki setengah, besar 3 jari camtu. (sorry joe, i know it'll be better if i put the photo here..but it's a risk i dare not take after that close escapee). Jarak antara dia ngan aku masa tu cuma sekaki. Syukurlah..panjang lagi umur aku.

ONCE...food for thoughts

Be blind in the race for educational excellence.

I was told that we need to be in the system to change the system. Simply put, we need to be in the government. Best, in the ruling party of the government. But to do that, I'll be bloody long time. Tears, sweat & blood spills in the wake to change and improve the system. Whether we will survive in the system, whether we will succeed in changing the system will depend on how influencial we are, how tough and stubborn we are as well. Shall we touch the soft spot and place the right sentiments to the system, I believe we can succeed.

Should I be in the system ? Still debating...if I want to, then first need to register with a party. But, as I wanna be the 8th or the 10th, I must join now and build my credibility and success stories. Or shall I create new party where I'll be the president with new agenda that will be supported by everybody ? Then, perhaps I can be in the premier much faster.

ONCE...ala sedihnya...

Punya la banyak bende yg boleh dibuat, yg boleh dipikirkan tetapi org kite membuang masa dengan sia-sia dgn menunggu suara pontianak. Kenapa tidak bekerja, mengaji, membaca buku, mentelaah ilmu atau menghambakan diri kepada Allah ? Jgn la nak dibandingkan dgn bebudak rempit atau anak muda yg terkinja-kinja dlm pub atau disco. Kenapa perlu menyamakan diri sendiri dgn manusia lain yg sama rendah akidahnya ?

Apakah kerana terlalu aman Malaysia ini sehinggakan rakyat tak tahu menilai apa yg berfaedah utk dibuangkan masa mereka ? Haruskah kita ada sedikit huru-hara dan bencana utk sedar ? Tetapi, pastinya, kesedaran sekelip mata. Haruskah kita terasa tercabar, tercalar, terhina utk bangkit memartabatkan bangsa ? Lihat sahaja sejauh mana isu Melayu hina di Penang. Masih lagi masyarakat mencari pontianak ?!

Harus siapa lagi yg perlu dipersalahkan ? Bangsa lain ? Bukankah itu semacam kita merayu kepada mereka supaya jgn ditindas kita ini ? Atau berhidung tinggi mengingatkan mereka supaya jgn berkurang ajar, melebih-lebih memijak kepala ? Mereka ini cukup masak dgn tabiat org Melayu. Spt yg ditarbiyahkan oleh seorg imam di kampung, "org melayu ni, asal ada makan je cukup!" Cukup mudah nak jaga Melayu. Sekadar bagi makan, habis sekampung mau dibaginya kepada bangsa lain kerana terhutang budi atau terkilan jasa. Makan perlukan duit ? Maka dijual tanah pusaka sekangkang kera supaya dpt makan dan bergaya. Drpd menjadi org Kaya felda selamanya, mereka menjadi org Kaya felda seketika. Matlamat pemimpin Melayu tidak kesampaian.

Ketika berduit tidak beringat. Tidak dibantu Melayu lain yg memerlukan. Duit berjuta2 di bank, gaji berpuluh kalau tak beratus ribu sebulan, kenapa tidak dibantu Melayu yg ingin belajar berniaga. Bank mahukan cagaran, Melayu tak pandai menulis kertas kerja utk geran...atau ada yg pandai tetapi malas atau rungsingkan keselamatan. Harus bila lagi Melayu bisa memecahkan pegangan kaum lain dlm perniagaan ?

Dlm era global, bagaimana pula Melayu Islam boleh memecahkan dominasi Yahudi dan Nasrani ? Dlm bidang ekonomi, sains dan teknologi, politik ketenteraan dan sebagainya ? Atau apakah mesti Arab Islam yg mengembalikan kegemilangan Islam ? Bagaimanakah dan bilakah Melayu akan kembali gah dimata dunia seperti suatu ketika...di Melaka...

ONCE...well said

Aku cuma nak pastikan artikel ni ada dlm blog aku. Jadi akan datang nak carik senang.

Ekonomi asas ummah merdeka

ONCE...good start

Tengahari tadi gi amik cek. First, payment for NDC..alhamdulilah, syukur. First customer, and a very good paymaster heheh...So, next week buleh buat payment utk sample modem dari Lithuania, register domain, create website dan go all out to market.

Semestinya semangat berkobar2. Maka, user manual pun disiapkan menjelang Maghrib tadi. Antar kat Lithuania satu sebab diorang nak tgk and maybe promote to some other market as well. Kat Joe satu, kalu2 org Arab and/or Afrika pun nak pakai. Dan jugak kat rakan-niaga yg lain yg telah menunjukkan minat utk memasarkan produk tu.

Dan baru je 1/2 jam lepas, aku dpt siapkan draf pertama untuk brosur (brochure) 2 muka (buleh la nak print depan blakang nanti). Printout nye memang nampak cantik la (printed on HP Color Laserjet 5550).

Lepas nih, antara lain, nak siapkan kertas kerja untuk InnoFund. Geran dari MOSTI, buleh la kalu nak dapat dalam RM 50k. Apply untuk buat yg Inter-active punya pulak. Mudah-mudahan...berjaya !

ONCE...5th anniversary

Syukur alhamdulillah..dah masuk 5 tahun perkahwinan kami. Ni hadiah anniversary yg istewi aku kasik. Aku tak bagi lagipun hadiahnya..ingatkan malam ni la kut ( :D ).


Aku bersyukur dikurniakan istewi yg cukup baik dan melengkapi hidup aku (..you...complete me..and i can't...just...shut-up...just shut up..). 2 tahun ini betul2 menguji kami. Aku bersyukur kerana tersedar sebelum terlewat..sebelum nasi menjadi hangit..sebelum kek menjadi hangus...sebelum.....Aku bersyukur kerana istewiku tabah dan bersama2 ketika kami susah.

Semoga Allah memberkati kami selamanya. Dan semoga Allah tabahkan serta teguhkan kasih sayang kami dlm mengharungi ujian-ujian mendatang. Amin.

ONCE...apa nak jadi la ni...

K'jaan negeri guna dana khas bantu rakyat miskin utk tujuan lain. Cuba carik kat mana-mana akhbar perdana kalau2 ada artikel ni, tapi tak jumpa. Mungkin ini diekstrak dari laporan tersebut.

Lalu, apa perlu kita lakukan ? Haruskah kita membuang undi kepada pihak lain yg mungkin tidak tergamak utk menghaburkan duit org miskin ini pd pilihanraya akan datang ? Atau kita usulkan kepimpinan di cawangan/bahagian ditukar supaya org lain yg lebih telus, jujur dan amanah memimpin negeri ini ? Yang sedihnya, semua itu negeri2 Melayu majoriti. Sudah pasti yg miskin pun Melayu, yg tarah pun pemimpin Melayu. Lepas tuh, berkompang pasal nasib Melayu di Pulau Pinang dipinggirkan, teraniaya. <# ayat ini telah disensor kerana kurang sesuai utk kanak2 dibawah umur #>

10 tahun lagi, time aku bertanding, korang sokong2 la aku. Agenda:

* Hapuskan rakyat miskin dari bumi Malaysia (samada berikan bantuan dan kemudian diorang boleh hidup macam org lain, atau antar ke negara lain)
* Pendidikan percuma pada semua
* Program kesedaran (awareness) utk tingkatkan penyertaan bumiputera dlm bidang perniagaan (dan berjaya!)

UNDILAH SAYA !!!

ONCE...ansuran RM 20

Malukan Melayu kata beberapa org besar (Datuk2 belaka). Apa yg nak dimalukan ? Kalau malu pun..bagus la. Baru diorang terasa malu, dan akan bayar lebih dari RM20. Kalu betul la diorang tuh semua jadik golongan professional yg berjaya, langsaikan je terus.

Apa dah tak boleh buat "reverse phsycology" ke ? Takut sangat malu..takut org tahu. Taknak bukak pekung di dada. Biar busuk berulat asal org lain tak tau ?!!! Nak jaga sangat maruah peribadi tapi perangai macam ?@$*##. Habis, kalau masuk mahkamah kemudian kena penjara atau diisytiharkan bankrup kerana tidak mampu bayar...ataupun mahkamah jatuhkan hukuman bayar RM 15 sebulan (sebab itu je dia mampu daripada diisytiharkan bankrup)...apa tu nanti tak malu ke ?

ONCE...M'sia kalah takraw ?!!!

Kalah kat Thailand tu dah org panggil musuh tradisi la. Tak kita kalah, dia kalah. Macam pakat gilir-gilir pun ada kekadang tuh. Tapi bila kalah kat Indonesia ? Mungkin baru..setidaknya negara rumpun Melayu. Kiranya, diorang pun main takraw la jugak.

Tapi..!!! Apa ke kambingnya yg boleh kalah ngan Jepun ?!!! Ngan Myanmar ?!!! Pegi Bangkok tuh ingat nak enjoy ke ? Kalu nak dirasionalkan, buleh...takde masalah. Jepun byk duit, jadi dia boleh bayar lebih untuk mendapatkan jurulatih yg handal2 (aku tak tau detail nih...sapa jurulatih dia..player dia nama Raksoon ke, Tharib chai ke, Ahmad Latip ke...) atau menawarkan warganegara pada pemain (atau isteri supaya buleh dpt jadik warganegara cam mamat Brazil yg main ari tuh). Habis..Myanmar tu nak rasionalkan macammana ? Duit diorang bukannya byk sgt nak laburkan kat takraw nih !

Memang la Malaysia yg memperkenalkan takraw kepada dunia, tapi kita kan terer bab memperkenalkan, melancarkan, merasmikan, mehooraahkan. Kepanjangannya dan kejayaannya...kita tau la kan haa..

Mengabiskan duit rakyat je mangkuk2 yg main tuh. Daripada bola sepak, takraw, badminton...kalu nama ko tu Melayu la yg main...harapla nak naik tinggi2. Baik la duit banyak2 tuh, buat bagi biasiswa utk pelajaran ke. R&D ke. Kalau aku la yg jadik Menteri Belia dan Sukan, mau ramai atlet OKU kita nanti. huahuahua...

ONCE...imej apa yg ingin ditonjolkan ?

Apabila terbaca keratan ini. PM sanggup meminta maaf kepada rakyat ? Yang peliknya, di sini tidak pula menyatakan perihal meminta maaf. Utk perbincangan, kita lihat keratan ini.

Apakah tanggapan kita ? Ketika terbaca keratan tersebut, aku rasa Pak Lah tidak ego, sanggup terima kesalahan (jika benar) dan sanggup meminta maaf. Down to earth kata org putihnya. Tetapi, apakah org lain juga berpendapat sedemikian ?

Ketika aku menulis blog nih, tercetus persoalan...apakah perkara ini sepatutnya tidak harus terjadi. Pak Lah tidak harus (tidak boleh) tercicir dlm kenyataannya ? Jadi, tidak perlu meminta maaf. Apakah pula tanggapan kita ? Naif ? Ambil mudah ? Atau delegasi terlampau (unmonitored delegation) ?

Yang mana satu lebih rasional dan lebih wajar ? Kalau dibandingkan dengan PM terdahulu, bagaimana pula hasilnya ?

ONCE...kemana sudahnya ?

Apa yg boleh kita tafsirkan dari keratan ini ? Boleh dikatakan agak kasar (direct) berbanding dengan keratan yg lebih lembut ini.

Persoalan yg bermain-main diminda...kenapa mesti Tun ingin menurunkan tarafnya dari seorang bekas Presiden UMNO kepada perwakilan biasa perhimpunan agung ? Apakah benar ada cubaan utk menggagalkan permintaan beliau ? Kalau kita cuba renung dalam2...kemana sudahnya "perjuangan" Tun ini.

Katakan Tun berjaya menjadi perwakilan. Apakah yg ingin dibangkitkan ? Apakah Tun ingin menarah Pak Lah secara terbuka ? Dan apakah kemudiannya mencadangkan dirinya utk bertanding jawatan Presiden ? Katalah semuanya terjadi...menang pulak tuh. Maka secara otomatis, Tun menjadi Presiden BN yg layak utk menjawat jawatan sebagai PM Malaysia. Apakah Malaysia bersedia utk itu ? Apakah mandat besar yg dimenangi BN..yg mencerminkan sokongan rakyat kpd Pak Lah, akan merestui perkara ini terjadi ? Apakah pula impaknya kepada Malaysia dari segi ekonomi, FDI dan persepsi dunia ?

Apa agenda Tun sebenarnya...?!! Apakah peranan kita..?! Apakah pendapat kita..?! Apakah tindakan kita..?!

ONCE...lovebite

Hai...naya la nih...dah macam paparazzi kat Hollywood nih...lepas ni apa plak ? Siti tak berapa catwalk dah ? Dah tak seteguh dulu ? huahuahua...

ONCE...MLM wujudkan jutawan ?

Untuk renungan...di sini.

ONCE...idiots !

Especially for Joe who commented that my blog is dull (because no pictures). Well, this a start. It's from him anyway. He sent to me on 22 July 2003. But, I dunno whether the research still valid or has been proven otherwise. Enjoy...

ONCE...durex testers wanted !!!

Hey guys...there's a drive by durex to get comments from consumers on how can they improve their products better. Any takers ?!! Hehehehe...roll yourself here. (Saw it in newspaper yesterday)

ONCE...really, once a CTO!

Today, it's official that I'm no longer the CTO (that reminds me to change the header..).

I was so deep into the monitor with my stuffs only to found 2 stacks of my new call cards on the far left of my table. "When did that bugger put those cards on my table ? Didn't see her coming..and it's not on my table when I came this morning. hmm.."

On the new card, there's no more CTO. I'm now ED. My partner's idea last 2 months as we planned to go out and do sales. So, not sounded too techies. Well, now I can really claimed "once..a CTO"

ONCE...anakku..

Aku masuk bilik lebih kurang pukul 2 pagi. Anak pompuan aku tak tido lagi. Cam biasa, nampak aku masuk dia mesti pejam mata..."sebelum abi bising..baik aku cuba2 tido" agaknya itu yg dia pikir. Tapi, aku cium dia, bini aku ngan anak laki aku..pastu mandi....*long story short*.

Masa aku nak tido tuh, aku letak bantal peluk dia, letak satu lagi bantal kat belakang dia..pastu aku amik patung Barney tuh..main2kan kat muka dia..gigit2 tinga dia...pastu aku letak kat bahu dia. Next thing I noticed, she hold the Barney tight. Dia peluk Barney tuh..biasanya dia campak je la kan...oh...I'm touched !

Sian diorang..abi dia dok balik pagi jek semenjak 2-3 minggu nih. Sabarkan dan cekalkanlah hati mereka Ya Allah!

ONCE...wedding of the decade (who say?!)

Hahahaha...its not that I envy Datuk K or I hate Siti, just that for such a grande wedding supposed to be well-planned, well-organized and well-done turned out to be not that good. For the newly wed, maybe everything goes smooth, but I'm talking about those guests especially VVIPs.

Waiting for such a long time to get their table number, dinner served only at 10, cold dishes, soup & coffee. Worst of all, FREE SEATING !!! Imagine all those mak datin, artist friends that would definitely spent on best dress for the night, and suddenly, sit at the back of the hall ?!!

One may ask, "what is it for you that you make so much a fuss about all these things..". I'd say, money not well spent on wedding planner. Wedding planner of poor quality! Just pity those guys. Looked at papers and definitely there's none about the chaos. You can find it here, here and here.

Now, both bride & groom will get 'busy'..guess the journalist & papers can start consentrating on more serious topics which shall contribute to the country more than those glitzy outrages celebrity stories. Last note...last night I was really annoyed and iritated with ERA. And my car audio kinda stucked that I can't change to other channel. So...I turned off my audio har har har...(so the boring driving then..)

ONCE..."i look stupid.."

Last night while having our drinks while watching Chelsea vs Blackburn, I saw Amani coming with her bf (I guess as they're holding hands). They sat right behind us with bunch of their friends. Then, I noticed Lan was staring at her and them.

   Apa yg ko tengok tu ? (What are you staring at ?)
   Aku tgh tengok "I look stupid"..hahahaha.. (I'm staring at "i look stupid"..)

We laughed. Only when we're heading to the car that he told me that Amani might hv heard him. He saw the bf consoling her (rubbing her back), and she's kinda depressed..and the bf also gave this wtf look kinda thing. But I said, "what the heck do they wanna upset with ? we're just quoting what his gf said..isn't it ?" And we laughed again.

ONCE...nukilan tentang berniaga

Cemburu pulak tengok Munmon tulis BM. Ambil iktibar dari kes Amani, marila kita cuba2 berbahasa pulak.

Hari Rabu lepas, saya berpeluang utk duduk dlm panel penilaian teknikal utk salah satu geran (grant) yg disediakan oleh kerajaan. Tidak ramai yg disenaraipendekkan, kire cukup la jari2 kaki & tangan utk mengira. Majoriti yg membuat pembentangan adalah dari kaum Cina. India tiada langsung dan Melayu selebihnya (42%). Persoalan yg bermain benak kami ialah kemana perginya org Melayu nih. Kerajaan pimpinan Melayu, peluang2 perniagaan utk Melayu banyak, bantuan kewangan bercambah tetapi bila dinilai, tidak ramai yg sampai.

Berdasarkan pemerhatian saya, terdapat beberapa faktor yg menyumbang ke arah ini:

1. Kurang pendedahan dlm menyediakan kertas kerja
2. Kurang minat untuk berniaga (isu jaminan hidup)
3. Tidak berani mengambil risiko
4. Pemahaman dari pendidikan Islam yg tidak menyeluruh

Faktor 1 boleh diatas dgn membimbing para usahawan. Terdapat bermacam2 perkhidmatan yg disediakan baik dari pihak kerajaan mahupun NGO. Ia juga boleh diterapkan dgn lebih jitu dgn bermula dari awal iaitu ketika sekolah lagi. Langkah Kementerian Pelajaran utk menambahbaik kurikulum pelajaran amat tepat dan diharapkan elemen keusahawanan ini dpt diterapkan dgn jayanya.

Ini juga akan membantu mengatasi Faktor 2. Akan tetapi, faktor 2 & 3 lebih kepada pendedahan dan mentaliti. Kita disogok oleh ibubapa serta para senior supaya bekerja dgn kerajaan. "Terjamin" katanya. Memang betul terjamin kerana walaupun kita tidak bagus bekerja, tidak efektif, tidak produktif, tetapi hujung bulan kita terjamin. Cukup lah sekadar apa yg ada (yg membawa kepada faktor 4).

Tetapi, golongan ini jugalah yg menjalankan perniagaan MLM, direct-selling, jual kain, kuih raya, bazar ramadhan dsb. Tidakkah itu menunjukkan masyarakat Melayu berdaya maju dan ada ciri-ciri keusahawanan ? Benar, ada! Tetapi, perniagaan yg sekali-sekala, yg selagi tak betul2 banyak keuntungan, selagi itu tidak meninggalkan kerja tetapnya. Terdapat sebuah buku yg menceritakan peluang2 membuat perniagaan selepas waktu pejabat. Perniagaan runcit dan kecil-kecilan.

Mengapa hanya kecil-kecilan ? Kenapa perlu dilaksanakan selepas waktu pejabat ? Bukankah itu memakan masa rehat kita diwaktu malam ? Atau memakan waktu santai kita dihari minggu ? Kerana jaminan ! Sekiranya gagal, masih lagi mampu menampung belanja bulanan. Tetapi, apabila kita tahu yg duit lebih itu dari berniaga, apakah pemikiran kita dipejabat tertumpu kearah melaksanakan kerja2 & amanah sebaik mungkin dan memperbaiki kekurangan sekiranya ada, ataupun hanya menyiapkan kerja2 didepan mata ?

Faktor 4 adalah kerana sentimen "kerja bagai nak gila, siang malam, ibadat kemana..", "duit byk pun bukan boleh bawak mati..", "kita digalakkan besederhana"..itu yg dipegang kebanyakan org Melayu. Kenapa tidak "bekerjalah spt kamu akan hidup seribu tahun, dan beramallah spt kamu akan mati keesokan hari", "9 dari 10 punca rezeki adalah dari berniaga", "wang yg byk boleh menyumbang zakat yg byk yg dpt membantu fakir miskin". Semua tahu Rasulullah berniaga..maka kenapa serbannya serta jubahnya diikut, tetapi semangat perniagaannya tidak diikut ?

Satu lagi faktor yg saya temui ialah tidak mahu berhutang. Tidak mahu berharap atau bergantung pada org lain. Masalah ego sebenarnya. Sekiranya, dgn berhutang kita boleh bergerak lebih maju, lebih cepat maka apa salahnya berhutang. Jgnlah diniatkan berhutang tapi tidak mahu membayarnya. Sekiranya berniat begitupun, kerajaan ada menawarkan kemudahan geran (grant) yg saya bicarakan. Wang yg diberikan tanpa perlu dibayar balik, tetapi kita haruslah melaksanakan apa yg kita katakan ketika memohon. Ianya adalah kemudahan utk menggalakkan keusahawanan dan pertumbuhan ekonomi.

Banyak lagi isu2 serta dilema yg perlu dibahaskan. Tetapi cukuplah setakat disini dahulu. Walauapapun, saya akan cuba memohon geran tersebut pd Sept ini. Lihat samada permohonan itu diluluskan dahulu ataupun "jaminan" yang sampai dahulu.

ONCE...potential investor

I went to SAB, thought for my application. After further discussion, technically definitely I can fill the gap for them. But business-wise, it's a good opportunity to us. Dato' also mentioned that it may not be ethical for me to leave like that. So, I proposed them to come in and buy. They are open for it!

I'll prepare the company profile and experiences as the CEO requested, and hopefully it'll be a good one. LC left it to me as I've started the ball rolling with them. I plan to submit the document to them by next week.

ONCE...one week guy !

1st August, Foo came back. Everyone welcome him, especially the CSM. Office became warm, happy and noisy again. LC really put high hope on him, as that would tell something to other people that left.

But today, he broke the news to LC. He's moving to Mesiniaga. "I know what I want, and Mesiniaga is the place to get it". Once, we had "One Day Lady"..and now we have our very own "One Week Guy" !

Anyway, all the best bro !

ONCE...back to rat race ?!

*sigh*..guess am back to rat race. Lost the steam already..thought can push it further (this), but only to realize that..it's no longer my passion (or $$ didn't speak accordingly :p). I've updated my CV and sent to few COs already. Thought I won't have difficulties finding jobs, but i thought wrong.

On my own CO, the development has been great..need to fine-tune here & there, then should be ready. Just that, marketing hasn't start aggressively..at least from my side. Few friends started pushing it to market already. Am rushing for the product to be ready, and then as suggested by my mentor, make it online. Pay then download!

Is my prayers being answered..? Seems like hints are available..just that..I don't get that feeling. The one that says "ah..! this is it !!". Or perhaps, I've made my decision previously..but don't really stick to it. Cause when I made that decision, the reason for it is very obvious and significant. So, why change ? Hmm...that day I wondered..almost 30, and yet to stabilize on my career. How far more..? How long more..? When would enough..is going to be really enough...?

ONCE...let's do it ! (?)

It has been very interesting development this week. ABDM tucked in her letter on Wed and caught LC off-guard. It was such a short meeting, that I'm also surprised. Then, LC asked me to go for a drink and she asked me whether is it possible for me to postpone my plan. If possible, both plans. I told her that I can postpone "going to work" but am going to start my own. But, when I go out for my business, it can be for the co as well. (I almost can see her first drop..but she's such a strong woman).

Anyway, I didn't say anything yet. But, that night, I've discussed with my wife. "She has done her part with Feng Shui. Have you done yours with Waqiah that mum told ?" Well, that's true..zikr that my mentor taught also not being practiced. However, I've started doing istikharah..but yet to come. For now, I'm going to focus on both companies. Furthermore, no offer on the table as yet.

Discussion with Foo last night was good, his call also good..and meeting with him just now also good. Hope for the best next week. We've talked to ABDM, and we'll know her decision next week.

I handed my card to LC..she's telling me that she'd pre-empt that I'm not going to be full-time here. I told her that Foo & ABDM knew it already. So, I shared her my plan on NDC, and she said might as well disclose. Easier ! Then, can move address here as well. Well, interesting thought indeed.

I'll consider that...and now, roll the sleeves...and let's do it !

ONCE...relieved !!!

I was thinking to tell LC yesterday, just before she went home. Then, thought it would better to tell her in the morning, before our meeting. Reached office at 9am, she's not there yet...10 something only she's in. By 10.30, I can't concentrate anymore..can't work, can't think. So I went ahead, closed the door and start telling her.

It was an odd 2 minutes of silence ! She dunno what to say...and I dunno what to continue. Anyway, long story short, starting July I'll be in twice a week. Kinda, diversification for me. But, if I'm "going back to..", then, need to see whether I can still remain as director or just shareholder. There's another option which LC dun wanna take into consideration as yet; dispose altogether.

It's hard for me to arrive to that decision..and very hard to tell her..but I'm glad that she's very understanding and cool. And business doesn't change at all between her & me after that. And for me...I really have to put those thoughts into papers. Or else, it'll all just be...well...an IDEA !

ONCE...is this it ?

I've just updated my resume. Last update was in 2002 for Mavcap submission. I was looking for my Detail Experiences that I dunno where the hell is the softcopy. So, this time, only from 2003 till 2006. 1998 till 2002 will be later I guess..when I've the time.

It's quite firm for me to initiate my own activity. The company has been created, but very slow in running it. But the opportunity (unexpectedly) on Tuesday, really made me thinking. It is more about my family that made me really thinking about it. And seems like, I'm going to pursue...in exploring it. My mentor asked me to update my CV last 3 weeks, but very the slow one (also). Maybe that time, I haven't realized the toll that it takes on my family.

Now the CV is ready, am going to prepare a copy for my mentor...and perhaps..am going to email it to Dato' tomorrow. Hope for the best !

ONCE...finally!

Finally...last Friday we've got our hand on our Streamyx in our new office! But, I can't really enjoy it as I need to go to KLCC for a meeting. To my dissappointment, when I reached office at 9pm, the connection not there anymore. So much about WiFi *sigh*.

Next Tuesday, we'll hv small Doa Selamat ceremony and office opening (makan2). Start operating in new office officially, start with new spirit, new theme, new energy, renewed vision and mission, renewed passion...may Allah bless us this time with good profitable deals and strengthen our belief to strive and be successful.

ONCE...moving to new office

We're moving to Kelana Jaya. We've packed most of the stuffs since yesterday and I'm going to see the new office this afternoon. Maybe bring some hand-carry stuff a bit. Later this afternoon, we'll try to dismantle most (if not all) of the cubicles, tables and shelves. Tomorrow...will be d'day :D !

Hope with the new office (save 50% of the rental compared to TPM), new month and renewed spirits and energy...we'll be better. Maybe the savings from rental, we'll put it back (or rather give it back) to the people. -Insya-Allah-

ONCE...holiday treat

We went back to PA friday eve. Hong lend me about 13 dvds (i've asked for 6 only). That night, i watched Bourne Identity and Spider-man 2. Yesterday morning, clear up the grasses, hang clothes then enjoyed Italian Job. After lunch, Angah came (surprised!) as he dunno what to do..alone at home. Maybe nothing nice on HBO, Cinemax & StarWorld or ESPN for that matter. But then, he were with me for 15 minutes on Star Wars II before doozing off. Woke up about 5 (as the show ends), then went back. And we then went to KS.

I'd just finished Star Wars III. It's amazing how George Lucas can create such a continuity in the stories. It made me wanna do something like that in Malaysia. Maybe need to start writing and imaging things now. It really relaxing for me..doing nothing but relax in-front of the TV. Clear-up my worries. But, that shouldn't be..should it ? What would LC think and do at this point of time ? Thinking very hard on how to get money i guess ? Or she'd pick-up on the things she left with her husband and kids ?

I've plans and agenda. Started but progressing very slowly. Dunno why it's so slow. Am I losing the steam already ? What would kick me back.? Last year when I was broke, there's so many ideas on how to get money...but it really ain't working when I'm not. But I kinda broke at the moment aren't I ?!!! So, why am I not kicking asses, adrenalin pumping thinking and acting on it ?!!!

"Procastinating, I am"..(hahaha...sounded like Master Yoda)...when shall I start..? When should I continue ? Can it be NOW ?! Emm...one thing for sure. I've procastinated on the ideas that I got back then. Never wrote it down, never execute...never even start on it! That's why I'm still broke!

ONCE...perihal Melayu ?

UMNO jangan jadi dinasaur

Kata-katanya mengetuk hati aku. Aku bencikan Melayu tipikal..tetapi apa itu Melayu tipikal ? Apa yg disuarakan oleh En Malik, menjawab serta membetulkan pemikiran aku berkenaan Melayu tipikal. Tidak ada istilah Melayu tipikal ! Melayu adalah bangsa yg kuat..kita yg membuatkannya nampak lemah. Dan aku harus membetulkannya...setidak-tidaknya...bermula dari AKU...

"Genggam bara api biar jadi arang"...apakah sudah berarang bara api yg aku cuba genggam sekarang ini ?!!

ONCE...Out of the Cage

Out of the Cage

I read this article and impressed with the words & thoughts...and I read without knowing the author..first! Well said...well said indeed...

ONCE...enemies@work

enemies@work

just find it interesting to read...and something to ponder..make me think of few also...

ONCE...TTT for PPSMI

YEY !!! I've graduated as a trainer for PPSMI program. Initially, it's for my personal agenda to participate to this program. But after listening to the nature of the program, it's really close to my heart..NATION BUILDING!

We were asked to introduce ourselves on by one (yesterday) and then mention the reason why we're here. So, nation building is one (and also mentioned about my ambition to be the 10th in 20 yrs), another one is to improve myself on public speaking esp to adult listeners. The Master Trainer, Pn Haliza is such a great motivator and speaker.

We also need to present a module and her comment to me was "..there's no energy..can't feel your enthusiasm..". It got to do with facial expression, voice tone and volume. I went back to office after that (around 9pm)..had some discussion with LC & BDM. Only at around 11 pm, I started practising. I record my delivery on the notebook. Then, I listened to it..."gosh..so booorriiiiiinng!!!" Straight away, I know I doesn't work...I need to work on it further. So went on practising till 2.30 am.

This morning, I was lucky as I'm in Liza's group. And we can choose any topic that we like and book our seat for presentation. VIP from TSI & MOE will be there to evaluate. While I was trying to pick my topic, then I heard..."lastly..Norhaizam. Why are you last ?!" errr...dunno Liza :D

Then, I planned on how to deliver my topic. And when the time come...I did well ! Just the finger-pointing need to be eliminated. To cut it short...I was informed that I've been certified. About 75% marks. Then, certificate presentation ceremony..and we all went back. It has made me a better person in delivering messages, presentation and public speaking. The next 2 months, I need to perform better than today.

ONCE...balik lambat

This conversation occurred on Monday (26 April) around 6-8 pm in Shah Alam (sorry, can't translate it or it'll loose it's essence:


   'ny      : Ummi, abi mana mi?
   ummi   : abi tak balik lagi...
   'ny      : abi go mana mi ?
   ummi   : abi go opis la...
   'ny      : abi ni ! asyik balik lambat saje !
   siti yah : haa...nanti abi balik..habaq kat abi lagu tu !

I laughed when my wife told me. My daughter noticed and can complaint already that I always went back late. Mostly, she's asleep already...and if she awake in the morning when we send her to babysitter's house, she's lucky to see me! Can I change this ? They missed me!

There's one day, I reached home at 5:30 am. It was around 8 or 9 am, semi-concious I heard my daughter saying, "emmuaks..! sayang abi sebab abi balik..'ny rindu abi..."..as she hugged and kissed me while I'm lying on the bed. I remember my wife laughed her heart out hearing that..(and some nice morning lecture for me after that laa) hehehhee...

errr... if I went back early and they see me everyday..they won't be saying sweet stuffs like that isn't it ?

ONCE...confirm miscarriaged :(

Saturday, 14:12, my wife bleeded and had much pain. And as she tried to change the pad, an object dropped in the toilet bowl. As motherly she is, she picked it up, washed it a wrapped it for me to bury it later. Went to Klinik Umra.

I arrived at 15:30, waiting for doctor to do the D&C. I went back to make my prayer, then came back at 16:30. Luckily there's two bed and the other was empty..so I slept there (tired !). Doctor came at about 1800 and half-hour later, done. My wife were drugged and still unconcious. "Wait another 1-2 hours, then can go back", doctor said. So, I waited till 19:30. Went back, then came again with my daughter at 20:30. It only cost us RM 645.

It's sad that our child couldn't make it. We believed there's blessing in disguise. We thank God that the mother is safe.

ONCE...TeAM's 9MP Dialogue

There was a big turnout at the event last night. Achieve the target of 150 pax..full house really. So now have better understanding on the allocation, focus and direction with regards to MOSTI's plan or mandate for 9MP. The various agencies and its roles, and of course MDEC and MBC (Malaysia Biotechnology Corporation) was the main focus as we want to understand what is it for ICT and Biotec.

We were fortunate because we got a chance to watch the trailer and behind-the-scene of Saladin. It's an animated TV series (10-12 series) that'll be on-air soon in our TV. Really good quality man!!! And all done by our MALAYSIAN !!!

It's no secret that some Malaysians did a job for those big animation companies. But, they're just part of Spiderman or Shrek or Star Wars. So MDEC took the lead, get all the relevant industry players and come up with Saladin. If you've watched Shrek, Nemo, Ice Age and LOTR, I'm telling you...your eyes will be gleefully enlarged, touched and proud, that we do and able to make such GOOD animation movies. Dunno about Cicakman though but knowing KRU, bet they'll make a good one.

So, watch out for those two CGI-based movies MADE in MALAYSIA by MALAYSIAN for the WORLD !!!

ONCE...another resignation

Two weeks ago she said whe might resign to follow her future husband (after marriage) to Sarawak. There's job waiting there. But, after giving some advice and time to think, she came back with "I've decided to stay." And today, came and put the letter on my table. "Why?"..as always, my standard question. "Not in Sarawak or Sabah. But, here in Peninsular." I asked her to submit to LC as I told earlier.

No wonder, the past few days I was really angry with the way things goes. What being said was not the same as what being on her mind or rather her heart as I guess she barely use her head (hahahaha...). What pissed me off today is not that she wanna resign. It'd a relief to me and after that incident, I want her to go. But, really, the fact is after her decision that day, my plan executed on her being the only PM. Then, lot of things are pending, not properly managed thus causing lots of trouble to programmers and all because, she's resigning. And only today (or perhaps yesterday) that she made the decision. "Been doing lots of thinking.." was one of the answer when I asked why. So, while the "thinking"...things doesn't move....sadly though.

On my way to the office, I was thinking that I would need to really micro manage and monitor all the project movements. Turn out, it'll be lot simpler. Don't have to think about what she felt and later how to manage that, but really manage my team!

ONCE...babysitting again

My wife had to come to her office last Saturday, so we postponed our "outing" to PA. So, am "babysitting" again. Why the quote ? Mostly, mama, ateh & acik took care of them. Mama fed them lunch, ateh get my son to sleep, then they all took my daughter together for shopping. Left me, my son, angah & baba. And later, when they came back, mama get my daughter to sleep around 5 or 6 plus. Me & son played in the room (or really..watch him played).

Well, frankly..not much that I did. There are times that they're all down there, playing with my kids, then I went up for prayer. But then, to go down, they would need to cover themselves..so I'm letting them to have freedom. That's why I stayed and watched TV instead :D

Anyway, thank you mama, ateh and acik !

ONCE...soooo sleepy

*huarghhhh*...I'm sooo sleepy now. Why aah ? Is it because I slept at 2 am this morning ? But that's my routine. Yet, there are times where I'm energetic and my adrenalin was pumping. Monday blues maybe..?! Heck no !!! It's Wednesday...so, shall we blame the holiday yesterday..hahaha !

The papers that I suppose to do, has been successfully postponed or put down. There's few more, but with this condition...I may fall asleep as I composing the words. It happen to me as I read one of the TeAM Council member's profile, that made me saying "...I need something to get my brain working..let's blog this!". And it also telling me that I need to update my profile for TeAM council's website.

Usually, Orkfia would help a bit, but now waiting for new age..starting tomorrow. And to make it worst, the frequent Orkfian onliner were offline !! Chatted with my wife, tried to use her webcam from her new notebook..but I guess for MSN to work, both need to have the webcam.

Perhaps, I need to go and disturb people...need to walk a bit and talk a bit...need to kick my adrenalin pump faster !!!

ONCE...how's business ?

Met Zul yesterday..one of the favourite questions was "how's business.?". My reply normally to that question was, "bit slow...*sigh*..difficult aa..". "Why aah ? Everybody that I asked, they're all replied the same thing.", Zul said. "Why can't they said..got a little, Alhamdulillah (thank God)..?".

Indirectly telling me that also! Thanks Bro, forgotten how forgetful I am. Even slow, it actually getting better on my side. And as our words is also our prayers, should say lots of nice and positive words..thus nice and positive prayers as well.

ONCE...LCCT

Coming back from Jakarta, AK 957 has lots of some folks. Dunno whether it's their first time flying or what but...they tend to behave like kids. As the gate opens, they race between themselves to get the best seat. I went in last. There's empty spaces that they put their stuffs..and start looking out of the window like nothing happen. Like they own those 3 seats. *sigh* If they're not about the same age as my grandma, I'd have give them the "WTF are u thinking u're doing?!!!" stare..hehehe.

Anyway, as the plane landed, it's about 300-500 metres walk to the Arrival gate. There's pedestrian lane but these old folks (maybe tired) couldn't care less. They just walk on the road like nobody's business and warned the AA's staff that asked them to follow the lane. Heard they complaining "..menyiksa org..jalan jauh2..." Oh well...that's Low Cost for you grandpa !

And of course, 3/4 of the flight are packed with Indonesians ! Bunch of college kids that giving high-5 for no reasons. Errr...am I too old to understand those behaviour already..?! Naahh...not old...just MATURED ! :D

ONCE...jakarta

Went to Jakarta on Monday afternoon. Just 2 days, on social visit ticket..but actually for meeting. First one for my renewed passport! And first time using the LCCT!

It's almost a year since my last visit to Jakarta. Pretty much the same. Just that this time when the taxi goes up to one of the flyover (the tallest..got three layers of FO), I'm "gayat" (Acrophobia-fear of height). Funny though..as I used to do repelling from 8th floor from UiTM Menara, but yet..*sigh*. Later I concluded that perhaps repelling, it's me whose in-control. But this one, the taxi driver. Same goes when Fuad drove me at Puncak Jalil!

Unlike Malaysia, lots of unusual view in Jakarta. The poverty level, people that do odd jobs to make a living, be it good or bad jobs, safe or risky, you name it. Got a chance to see life-demo as well (for the newly revised labor law)..but that delayed my meeting for 1/2 hour.

I tend to love going to Jakarta, but I love my family and Malaysia better. There's no place like Malaysia man !!! Going for days trip for working (mostly..haven't got a chance for pleasure yet) is fine..hopefully won't happen that need to be there for weeks or months. But then, who knows. The discussion has spilt over from IGM to other potential business with my co. Who knows, rezeki there :D !

ONCE...rezeki

I hang out with my mentor and Lan last Tuesday at TTDI. First, I wanna get his blessing on the items that I put in my paper, share the new developments. Glad that it went well. Get some latest development from him as well.

Among other things, he mentioned about "rezeki". Comparing me in SSSB and now, the progress is tremendous. The exposure, knowledge and experience has made me greater than who I am in SSSB. "That's rezeki!" he said. "Rezeki" shall not be regarded as "higher salary" only in moving from one place to another. Opportunity to work internationally, exposure to corporate world at large, opportunity to learn new stuffs, acquire new skills, gain more knowledge and experiences, chances to be close to the BIG boss; "those are also rezeki", he said.

He asked from God on the knowledge that can't be thought by human. And I believed, he got it! The analysis and summary that he gave on the big picture of current "situation", really impressed the top people who is INSIDE. As he is from OUTSIDE, yet able to see it clearly based on the simptoms and activities that was happening..I am definitely impressed (wished I has that knowledge as well...can't wait to go to Mecca). Just that for him, it kinda back-fire. Now, has lots to do. However, as far as I can assist...I will !

ONCE...moving to KL Sentral

It is confirmed that we are moving to KL Sentral. Latest by Jun 2006. LC went with the Feng Shui master in the afternoon. For my seating position, it'll be odd to make it a room there. So, there'll be one room (for her only), and the rest will be open-spaces. Server room also tarak (well, there's no real need for it anyway). Meeting room may be shared with IGM downstairs.

The rental is cheap compared to where we are now. The savings are about RM 55k a year. More than enough to cover our est renovation cost at RM 35k (min). We'll reuse all the cubicles and particitions, and whatever we can reuse from the current one. Parking is free there. And if the meeting room is occupied, there's always Starbucks or McD or KFC or Nasi Ayam restaurant available in Sentral Station or (if money not an issue), there's Hilton and Le Meridien next door as well. Public transport is fantastic...I mean in terms of availability and accessibility.

Just need to think, how to handle it next year. As MRCB Corporate office moving there (so does my wife), where to send our children ? Shall we move to KL ? Rental/buy ? If stay in SA, transport ? Maid or new babysitter ? Hmmm...there's 8 months to go...hope it's plenty of time to do whatever necessary and get the best (or ideal at least) solution for it.

ONCE...kedahans

I was in Kedah over the weekend. Taking the chance of visiting Mak Tuk (the whole lot went back in fact) as I've a meeting in UUM. The meeting went good, hope it'll turn out as an order.

That night, Baba asked me to follow him (since Mama & the gang went back already), looking for durians he said. Went to a bazaar at Meregong, saw some durians but didn't buy any. Then, Baba said "cok udang..sedap..", well okey I thought to buy some home. But, he sat down, ordered 2 cok udang and drinks. Hehehe..just felt odd for dunno what reason. And more shameful as he paid for it. Which later he asked, "Kontrak apa dok buat la nie ?" (What kind of projects are you working on now?)..where the reply goes, nothing new yet. And that's the reason he told my wife, as the story goes. Then, we head on to his friend's house (it's 9 pm), he told me about Alor Star during his teenage days, the buildings and events there...and then talked about his work.

He easily became tired nowadays. And how energetic Mama is, she didn't take a nap at the office (which he did, to regain his strength), but woke-up early morning, preparing breakfast (sometimes 2-3 types), go to work, non-stop working there, then coming back straight away preparing dinner, wash clothes, fold the washed ones...and that explains why sometimes...mama can fall asleep while reading newspapers. She'll collapse by 10 am...she needs all the rest though.

Well, actually what I wanted to blog is, the number of people at the bazaar. It's 7.30 pm, Maghrib (there's surau there btw). We're musafir, so it's okey. But, the bazaar was packed with people, eating !!! There's so many delicacies to choose from, from light to heavy dishes. And it's cheap as well. It'll be great if we can stay in Kedah, enjoy the cheap but good food, fisheries, goodies and stuffs, but in KL's paycheck ! That'll be heaven I'm telling you.

Hope UUM will engage our service, so that we can go back more frequently to Kedah. Thinking of using train next time, but the idea was shot down by the gang. Guess I'll take it if I'm going back alone.

ONCE...memories

I was waiting for my contractor to do site visit at my school. I was sitting at the bench near Surau, then memories of student days came to my mind. Here where I used to hang out, study-cum-dating with my GF (my wife now), doing KSK's activities and stuffs. My batch was among the first to move into the new building. The state of the buildings, lecture halls chairs like tidal wave, hahaha...it's not fully completed when we moved in.

But, one thing for sure, Apip & I has been to every inch in that building. Before we officially move, we went there to explore. Go into every classroom, lecture halls, lecturer rooms, labs, water reservoir, toilets (yes, both of them at top floor), dean's room, faculty's meeting room and on the roof!

Then, the memories continues with the friends and foes, stories, events and so many other things...sweet and painful. Then, for dunno what reason, one name poped-up...rahna ?! (don't u tease me on this at home okey honey ?!) It reminds me on the secret admirer's letter that I received, the teasing from friends and GF, the shocked when I knew who's she (but she doesn't know that I know), the trauma (so-to-speak) that I had.

Anyway, the sweetest of all in TMSK...is definitely my WIFE ! Who made me to chase for it for 3 years, as I got my Diploma, I got her confirmation ! Then, another 3 years (as she was studying) before we got married. During that 1st 3 yrs..hahaha..with rejection and all. *I love you honeyy!*

Ahh...yesterday, Fith dropped by to my office. He's with BAT, doing 1st level support. Still the same style and character! Anyway, the new building for TMSK (additional actually) is really nice. Visited the lab (and one area where the site supervisor was dead..falling down from 3rd floor), and the lab is fabulous! Wished to be a student again :D

ONCE...office reform(6)

Yesterday, handover session started. The plan is AD#1 to take-over all the projects managed by AD#2 except for IGM. I'll handle that myself.

Sales meeting just now, BDM really need to buckle-up. BDE has met 50% of the quarterly target, and the way she asked BDM just now was like she's the BDM actually. But, as I want everybody to be open and outspoken, can't blame her. Just that I felt like, you also has deals that was stucked there without closing for months.

LC asked TM about the transition. And I mentioned that I'm going to take-over on IGM. "That expensive haa..?! Cannot ! Over-qualified..too expensive!". Since, it's friendly party project, and Dev#1 is very much involved in the operations already (travelling to Medan few times and again next Tue, to Port Klang and Penang to meet the members and stuffs), he can manage it. It also can be a safe learning bed for him on project management.

Starting next week, the tech team will look into refining the products, make sure they're tested thoroughly...and regressedly. If need to run it for months, so be it!!! Will brief Dev#1 on his new assignment next week. Will have a big presentation first thing Mon morning. Hope everything will go smooth.

We're debating about moving to Sentral. But, really need to consider all the cost that may involve like renovation, moving, air-cond & stuffs. MSC status also another concern. LC talked to KC, on TARC bit slow..not moving as fast as we expected. He said that he believed that we can work together for long-term. "What do you read from it ?" LC asked me, "emm...they're not coming that soon ?". Well, probably. Their next board meeting would be end of May. Won't be that soon then. With our situation now, perhaps it's good also.

Idris had his BTP published very nice. I'm yet to have mine (well..u're not the CEO..bluerkh..doesn't matter..i need to have one !). I'll follow suit very closely...watch me :D !

ONCE...farewell Sharry!

Oh well...today's the day. Wish her all the best and keep in touch (kalu sudi). Sorry for everything (as I'm the evil). Have not looked at the Handover report, hope it's as what I've been expecting. But then if it is not, just have to make do with it. Can't expect or get her to come back here and finish it isn't it.

I believe she can fly on her new endeavour. If I believed she can take-over from TM, she'll able to do it anywhere else for that matter. Will I hear more from her after this..? Dunno and can't say. No doubt, it's being quite quiet since I heard the news. I'm adopting and learning to familiarize myself with what I've learnt. So, definitely people that used to be close to me will feel the distance...at least not the barrier. Will slowly build that barrier.

Well...since she's one of the Xs, and being one of the fav, I'm offering to extend the friendship. Accepted or not..i leave it to God. Okeh..enough sentimental already. Good luck !!!

ONCE...first TeAM Council Meeting

It supposed to be a grand entrance for the "challenger" but Dash has blew it up! "I've SMS everybody saying that Haizam is coming" Well, it's the first also for 2006, I'm joining the University's trust (hope i spelled it correctly). The meeting went in jovial mood, serious when it required too..mostly laughter and joy. Renu did warned Eliza (the new Exec Secretary) that the members are nice in the first meeting, but they'll be very nasty after this. But, Jay enjoyed it previously, so hope she'd enjoy it as well.

It's good turn-out last night. Few projects were discussed for 2006. Doc W shared some projects and initiatives for TeAM. Since, the exciting stories were between the 4 walls of Farith office, I'd stick to that. Briefly, it'd be a good atmosphere for entreprenuers especially start-ups.

Meeting and dinner concluded just before 11 pm. And I manage to arrive home on time (as syarat from honey..but she arrived home at 4 am :( )

ONCE...night shift

The past 3-4 weeks has been a hectic time for my wife. Especially last week and this week. The presentation and demo to CEO has put tremendous pressure on the team to ensure everything is OK! Furthermore, the CEO wants to see the report from actual data...meaning the people need to use the system start March 1. And as she needs to go to office during weekends, I'll babysit the children. And this week, Monday and Tuesday, I went home earlier than usual. Ermm...last Wed/Thu/Fri also if I'm not mistaken. But, Tuesday was the worst I can say. Shit happens and the team need to rectify the problems. And she needs to wait for them to rectify for her to test and key-in data for demo. Worsen as I also have some things to do for IGM and have another discussion after that.

So, I arrived home around 3.30 am, get my daughter to sleep, freshen-up myself. Next thing I know, Subuh already. She went back at 5.30 am. Then, she got half-day break after the presentation. And it is confirmed that they're moving to KL Sentral next year. Waa...since we're also debating to move there...guess it's a good thing. NO?!! From PA to Bangsar..? Who gonna look after the kids, who gonna pick them up ? Move to Suasana ?! If got money, no problem! But, she doesn't like apartment. And, I prefer not to raise my children in KL (don't ask me why!). But, let see how things move. Still plenty of time to think it over.

Talking about my wife's work this week...it reminds me about something that I've been pondering for a couple of weeks. When people do love what they do, they'll do the best and to certain extend, do whatever it takes to ensure the delivery is good and of high quality. But, when there's no love anymore..or perhaps..focus changed, liking changed or preferences changed, those quality kinda dropped. It's not like what it used to be before. Eventhough I tried to understand that people are excited about pursuing new things, but don't drop the standards lah. It reflects the image and perhaps the reputation and impression. High regards that people have, probably has been reduced. Emm...no, reduced would be too bad. But dissappointed to some people that expecting to see quality products (still) when the days are counting. Personal BRANDING is at stake here!

Talking about personal branding, really has to skip the seminar this morning. Need to focus on the slides for president next week. Hope it'll turn out good.

p/s: my wife still in the office...and i'm still waiting :D

ONCE...feng shui

Last Sunday, LC called to ask about my birth date. She's with Feng Shui master at our office. So, the FS master said that most of us (LC, me and BDM) are in West group except Tony in the East. So, West group need to face South West. He suggested I change my table direction to face the door. LC need to switch with the meeting room, pantry need to be closed, BDM need to take the round table area..so, need to re-arrange the whole Tech & BD area accordingly. My area and LC's need to be separated properly (put a door at the corridor) to curb the energy (for now it's lost, doesn't retain inside). The best 'wealth' energy is at Adx place. Well, coincidently, they've been working on few big projects which seems promising lately...but, being a Muslim we can't say that's the whole reason for that.

I'll take the energy part, positioning that may create better energy, environment, with lighting and stuffs. Perhaps, when the environment is good, energy is high, then we work more efficient and thus create more wealth (i.e. more projects coming in, more money coming in). It's not that once we change the positioning and direction, the wealth will come. Still need to work hard and work smart!

ONCE...office reform(5)

Skipped last week's progress report. Kinda busy week till next week. Have lots of activities; presentation and demo to potential customers, MGS's site visit, technical due diligence by potential investors and stuffs.

Last week, IGM has started recruiting members and Dev#1 went to Medan to enrol the members and to have a feel on the processes. Liked his report though, kinda novel. He went there again on Tuesday. Supposedly a one-day trip became three-days trauma. Poor Dev#1, but it's a hard-lesson learnt by everybody on IGM.

Presentation and demo for Tech DD by DP is ready. Tech DD on Thu was quite fruitful, but there's still more documents need to be vetted. Demo and review on other docs will be done on Tue 28 Feb. Site visit by MGS was postponed to a later date to be confirmed by MDC. Demo to DG also postponed from Wed to Mon 27 Feb. Meeting with BCB on Tue went quite good and there will be another round with them on Wed 1 Mar. Fri morning meet with CIDB on enhancement of GC.

TM managed to produce the cards for IGM on Wed morning (at 4 am), prepared demo sets for DP and training SHRDC. AD#1 busy with NLM's implementation last week and preparing for MGS site visit after that. AD#2 busy with AAN, IGM, Museum and other documents that she need to prepare for her departure. Prog001 came to support as Dev#1 flew to Medan, Prog002 (TM) was occupied with MGS and IGM.

Payment for NLM received already. Museum should come soon. As I need to look into detail in tech, I've informed LC that I can't look into sales/operation as well. So, no COO for now. Hope everything will go well with DP, and if DP really come in, I'll definitely propose for the betterment of the team (remuneration, motivation, human capital dev, etc).

ONCE...tasbih Mekah

Finally, manage to visit my mentor yesterday since he came back from Haj. Glad to meet him (as my wife put it, " suka la jumpa mentor dia tu.."). He gave me the tasbih that he brought along during his tawaf, and also taught me some zikr to be practised (amalkan); al-Ghani and al-Mughni.

We updated each other on current status and activities, future endeavour and friends'. Pity AK! He's being framed by his close-friend. Spent holidays together, know family well, being friend for a year or so (hope I heard him correctly). Then, when things turned ugly, report, take action and make sure he got what he deserved! Which is damaging his career, ruining his reputation and life. "Better don't fight with people." was my mentor's advice.

It made me think. As I don't have that many friends. Some friendship was formed while working together in projects or some business prospects. Some with my staffs. But, off recent, I was made to realized that..you can't be friends (or perhaps close-friends) with your staffs (yes honey...i know u've reminded me on this for soooo many times..! :p ). To some extend, they may not respect you as a boss/leader..if they're still do, it's much lesser than what it is used to be before I became...or rather I made them my close-friend. It happened since the beginning of my career..and it took me 8 years to realize and accept it (with 4 years of ignorance of honey's advice)!

Well..better late than never! Need to learn slowly in changing that. As long as they're my staffs, DO NOT make them my friends (ex(s) will be an excuse la). The distinction has to be clear (sadly).

Back to my mentor, spent about 2 hours, got some advice and tips, tried to dwell on the current politics, but reading from his response, better stay away (or rather behind-the-scene) than exposing. "I'll call you when I'm free.", glad and scared also hearing that. Just like that morning..hehehe..

ONCE...shocking!!!

*sigh* ...talking about 99% preparation, I'm not prepared for this 1% none-inspiration at all !!! Even though I kinda imagining it last week, but you know, things that I imagined, doesn't come true all the time. But, this one, turned out to be exactly as I imagined! Dunno why it was quite easy for me to accept the news before...but not this time. Especially, when I was about to ask for some assistance for the few key presentations coming this week, but that news blew it all...I've lost my words, lost my plans, lost the things that I wanna share...speechless...

I've tried very hard not to be emotional..try to take it professionally, and to try to accept it as I once did it. Dunno why it is hard this time. Early today, I made a decision of putting all my thoughts and efforts on the work/job-in hand. Not so much on heart and feelings. It's going to be a very busy week for me. But, this morning, I has to deal with heart & feelings. Would need to put myself back on track.

MGS site visit was postponed..what a breather! Tonite, TeAM's AGM where I'll be nominated as Council member. Hope I'll do good! Really looking forward to meet my mentor. When would I (and him) be free to catch up...

ONCE...decision making

It's not easy to make decision. Especially, when the time is too short to think, pressure is high, expectations mounting and perhaps, no-one to refer to at that time. Ability to decide, is one of the most important criteria in Leaders. Some other criterias are here.

My mentor once told me, "99% perspiration for 1% inspiration". 99% of our time, we need to prepare ourselves for the 1% chance or opportunity. The opportunity may come whenever He likes, and most of the time, when we lease expect it. But, if we have prepared ourselves (99%), when that 1% opportunity rise, we shouldn't think twice anymore to grab it. The same opportunity doesn't come twice! And it doesn't wait for us neither. Either we're up for it (meaning we've prepared 99%) or we're not (no preparation or perhaps less).

Someone pointed out to me that "...decision making: is the job of leaders, and leaders = THE BOSS!". Someone mentioned to me before that Boss and Leader is not the same. Leaders could be the boss, but the boss may not necessarily be a leader. I choose to be a leader..and still learning to be a good leader. In my readings, "..a leader is a good leader when he/she can groom more leaders." To groom more leaders...they must be able to decide! He/she will be groomed when he/she has all the necessary skills and characteristic or potentials to be a good leader. My grooming style, to make them, to be able to make decision. Bad decision..? Learn from it and move on. But, they will always be asked to make decision. And decision making it is, for them to make!

The decision doesn't have to be popular! It doesn't have to be the same with mine! It doesn't have to be in haste! But, it must be made timely! It must be made! Even if the decision is "..i can't decide now. I need x more times.", decision has to be made. Refusing to decide and be dumb doesn't gel nicely with me..provoking or retaliate ? I may take it as, "don't groom me...i don't like your grooming style" or "i don't wanna be your type of leaders" or "...don't wanna be your chosen ones.." or "..u're not a good leader after all, what makes u think u're the best person to groom me..?" or what..?!! Emotional..? hmm...when we hoped, a lot if not so much, then dissappointed..isn't it obvious that we'll be emotional ? Let's just hope, that I can be rational again...and perhaps, able to provide another opportunity to the chosen ones.

In one of my mentor's book, about Mentoring, is that both the mentor and mentee must have an understanding and agreement that the mentee agreed to be mentored by the mentor. I can't recall whether I've seek that agreement or not. But looking at mine and my mentor, it's me who asked him (which I think why he bought that book). In the same organization..? Does the employee (mentee) asked the potential mentor (boss, manager, senior ? ...leaders basically) or the leader itself, does it..and we felt like being mentored ?

For now, I chose my successor(s), I chose who I wanna groom..and I may or may not tell him/her about my intention. It'd be up to him/her to think, evaluate and then decide. And then again, up to me to think, evaluate and decide based on the performance and also acceptance/resistance on my intention.

ONCE...time with BDM

Spent almost 45 minutes with him. Started with discussion on potential projects, then extended to his problems. Lots of effort but still no (or rather very little) sales coming in. He did practiced what he learnt yesterday morning at MDC during his visit at Palm Garden. And he manage to find how to solve one of his problems; Building Rapport! "What's annoying to me is when my gf told me that, apart from my close-friends, customers or office-mates not really like your friend", he said. In other words, he has very little friends.

From SalesDogs, one of Robert Kiyosaki's series, he is the Bulldog type.

   Me   :   When you come in here, what do u understand from my body language ?
   Him  :   err...get out of here..don't bug me now...
   Me   :   Then, what did u do ?
   Him  :   After I start talking, then you listen and we start talking la..
   Me   :   See, you're Bulldog type as categorized in SalesDogs. You have no problem in dig-crash, cold-calling, and when people show that they don't want you there, you still bulldoze and make your way thru. So, when people start entertain you after all that, it could be 2 things; 1, they really interested to know more or 2, they will give you whatever you want as fast as possible so that they can get rid of you in no-time. hahahaha...

I told him that according to SalesDogs, the best salesperson is the one with mix of all breeds. So, he can maximize on the Bulldog, to open doors, create funnels, new contacts and stuffs, and learn new tricks from Golden Retriever or Basset Hound in building rapport. Need to start reading (Chihuahua). And for 28 years the Bulldog has become habit, it'll take time to get new habit(s) kicks-in. So, need to have something to remind you everyday.

Later after prayer, he wanna ask something (short one). I was listening till I yawn at one point. And he quickly, "..perhaps we discuss this some other time..". He probably pick-up my yawning as a sign of not interested or tired, then he don't want to bore me to death with it. Hehehe...forgot to correct him on that. Anyway, will chat with him again later...

Ahh..by the way, it's good to have my fav back...kinda missed that when **'s away.. ;-)

ONCE...potential investor

I was surprised when AD#2 asked me yesterday. It turned-out that LC has announced it to the Sales team, so almost all are aware that we're talking to DP. As of now, there's nothing concluded yet. Then, I was surprised when ABDM told me that she would be the first to be cut (since her unavailabitiy in March on so on). WTF ?! We are not talking about a merger here or take-over where people will be retrenched! I guess they just read about the bank's M&A or the big corporate M&A where retrenchment, down-sizing are inevitable. They didn't look at IBM took-over Rational, Microsoft bought Visio and other technology-based company acquisition..where the core team (sales & tech) are retained. Hair-cut may happen to redundant post such as Finance & Admin. That's the first hair-cut if need be.

LC shared for good reason. To share the activities that we're doing, to give them hope (probably) of brighter future...i guess..dunno why she shared. Because, I'll not share it if it ain't happening. And with what ABSM told me, it make it even obvious, that it shouldn't be shared in the first place. If everything will be taken negatively, why share it in the first place ? "Sometimes, it's better not to know!"

For DP, there'll be technical evaluation next week. If they can appreciate our IP and it falls greatly in their criterion (compelling tech), great potential customers, (can't recall) and of course profit making, they our chance would be higher. Or valuation can be higher or justified. Anyway, for them to come in, they'll be taking controlling stake. Thus, we have to adhere to DP's corporate values and branding. And, we need to give them Profit Guarantee, thus, we have to make it happen. Get more right people in the bus, and steer it to greatness. It's still a long way to go..and as KC mentioned, "..we're not negotiating yet...it's kinda education on how we do things.." The values, the concerns and the criteria that they're looking before acquiring a technology company.

ONCE...details..?

It doesn't feel good when you used to get details, then you're blocked-out from getting the details. Used to share, then not shared. Why do we need details ?!

   * To know the root cause of problems
   * To find solutions
   * To manage issues
   * To resolve conflicts
   * To lessen doubts and be sure

If we don't get the details from the details' owner, could it be he/she...

   * Angry with you ?
   * Frustrated with you ?
   * Dissappointed with you ?
   * Shy with you ?
   * Pity with you ?
   * It won't do any good if you know the details ?
   * It won't do them any good if they share ?
   * It's too late to ask for the details ?
   * Don't want to solve the problems/issues/conflicts/doubts ?
   * Solved it already ? And don't wanna share how it was solved ?

Apart from all that, I seek for details from details' owners when I'm concern with the owner. Does that mean I'm not concern and "don't care" when I'm not seeking the details ? Maybe..! As I dig from my experiences, I'll ignore that, to prevent my frustration and anger from not getting the details. And that, often enough turned-out to make me less considerate and unconcern man. And nobody likes inconsiderate person right ?! It also made me, taking he/she out of my concerned list. Really hope that I won't become that man...again!

Or perhaps, I should learnt to accept that "..sometimes..it's better not to know.." and that it doesn't mean people hate you when they don't want to share some details. *sigh* "It takes two to tango.." "Share yours, and people will share theirs as well"..can't recall the title of the book..but it sure is somewhere in my small library. *sigh*

ONCE...office reform (4)

It's more than a month (5 weeks to be exact) since my last progress update. Really bad at reporting..or perhaps distracted with the disgraceful findings that leads to this. Or maybe the title doesn't really tell it's an update such as this one.

Today, I want to record my progress. Unlike Idris whose MAS activities are going in faster pace, mine seems like..uhmm..2 steps front and 5 steps back ?! I insist previously on full TS by February..any problems will be TM's problems (which actually, become my problems then). Since then, TS was flooded with soo many things (documents, specs, slides, late nights, etc). I've told TS to let BDM and the rest of Sales team know her work load. Make them aware and extra careful with datelines/commitment given to customers as they wanna respond faster, TS work becomes harder. This is the same statement that I gave TM previously.

We presented to JPN, and thank God they understand our requirement and will look into it. In the car, LC told me that she bursted at TM yesterday! Seems like TM is kinda lost touch or not aware/up-to-date with the things he has in hands, his team's activities and progress. LC bursted again this afternoon about IGM. Dev#1 (formerly Dev#2) will be going to Medan this Sat. But he doesn't know what he supposed to do when LC asked him and that got her mad! Then, some other things that she expected was not ready as well! So, basically triple madness laa...(sapa yg susah..? aku jugak !!!)

Before IGM's, I was upset to know that the 3 sales was at Museum SA implementation. But, there was no appointed PM as TM update me. They only came back around 4 plus! And when TS update me, ViMS installation was smooth, and that mean she's sitting there almost a day for..?!! Okey, she learnt Preface, but is that suppose to be priority #1 or train those 2 on installation of ViMS (which supposedly being done long time ago!), so that she can concentrate on other higher priority such as IGM? *sigh* There's no planning, as far as I'm concerned on the implementation of Museum!

So, the aftermath of all this problems, we called-off TS for now. TS will be AD#2 again. As IGM will be handle fully by us, she is the best person to manage that project. I've reprimanded TM for the chaos..aah..during that session, an email from KL Lib came. The hand-over was not done still ?!!! "I want to know the plan by tomorrow!"

The sales doesn't move as expected. BDM said the Prod Mgr is moving but I didn't see anything. We doubt..the plan is not convincing at all. Or rather the execution of their plan is not convincing. ABDM has her limitation which is understandable. LC & I need to go out to get sales as well. But with the situation like this in the office, how to go out ? "...go out, play golf." emm...seems like it'll be a looooooooong time before i can tee. Ahh...lastly, AD#2 (former TS) expressed her protest or unhappiness in sarcastical way. Sensed it when we were discussing on the problems with TM, right after she came back from Museum.

TM would need to make sure that all Tech are trained on Preface, IDWorks and printer. AD#2 to sit down with me & TM to discuss on all TS's pending items. I do hope TM aware of his roles & resp..need to buck-up, really improve and alert about situation. Really don't want to make any further unpleasant decision. Calling off TS, is really unpleasant to me.

ONCE...fearless

Last friday we went to see Fearless at Summit. Guess we're the only malay there..but I'm a big fan of Jet Li, so I wanna see his so called "last action" movie. It's AWESOME !!! He brought me to love Tai Chi and Wushu. That until now, I still can't find any Tai Chi club neither in KL (Sri Petaling, Cheras even Kajang) nor Shah Alam! Though if I've basic Tai Chi, when I get the chance to meet him, can ask for guidance.

It was Thursday that I found out that there was KA on my tribe (Orkfia). And it created so much hatred as the PM goes beyond Orkfia. So, I change the strategy, prepared to fire back with PM when I'm ready to strike back. But, after I saw Fearless, it made me thinking about the fun and purpose of playing it. Why would we need to bring the hatred out ? Attacking the person, country of origin ? What for..?! So, I PM him with a bit more gently..also asking him the objective and purpose. Try to know him further..like how long has he played, the tips & rules. So, the end ? Just like Huo Yuanjia's first fight when he came back, we became friends !

And now we are at War. And War is different ball game. It's to WIN! And since it's WAR, there's no grudge, no revenge and no payback after the WAR over. 20 hours to go! Best part is, I made few more close-friends. Eventhough haven't met face-to-face yet, but virtual world (YM and Orkfia) connected us. It's like we've been buddy for years. And, Insya-Allah, one of them would be Emma's (Fuad's wife) brother-in-law. Hehehehe...small world eh !

ONCE...sakit mata

Balik dari kursus, anak2 aku dah beransur pulih..cuma isteri aku je mata bengkak dan merah. Aku harap aku tak kena. Tapi, Allah Maha Kuasa..hari ahad aku pulak kena. Masa jumpa doktor amik ubat isteri aku, doktor kata mata aku belah kiri cam nak bengkak. Aku ingatkan sebab makan ubat batuk malam tu yg buat aku nak membuta je...tapi..memang nak kena pun. Malam semalam dah jadik sama cam bini aku..merah menyala..cam ponti! "Ponti jantan" kata bini aku.

Dari semalam sampai ke hari nie, buat extensive medication. Memang tak tinggal makan ubat dan titis ubat mata. Kiranya, awal tahun nie, Allah uji aku macam2. Batuk, sakit mata, selsema dan demam. Kalu aku tak makan Panadol semalam, gerenti tak bangunnye ari nie. Itu ujian kesihatan yang diberi. Sebelum tu dan masih lagi sekarang nie, ujian kesusahan dan kelapangan.

"Sabarkanlah aku ya Allah..berilah aku pedoman dlm menjalani ujianMu ini."

ONCE...get ONLINE again!

Completed the SUS and it was great! Eye opener (thought I know a lot about entreprenuership already...but there's so much that I still don't know..but I do now), met lots of friends. Some already in business doing International Trade, Biotech manufacturing, Petrol kiosk operator, contractors, Frozen-food manufacturer among others. Not to be forgotten, fresh grads and employed as well. But, about 80% has started thinking business already. We'll have an alumni called "SUS150" or something like that and meet again after a year.

Looking back at my 5 years plan, I've 19 months before it end. Looking at where I am today, I'm far from reaching it...unless I do something about it. NOW !!! And NOW is what I'm preparing for. Coming February will be very exciting. Need to make sure that I WON'T GIVE UP EASILY ! Whatever it takes...whatever it may be...come what may...I'll strive...I'll go for it...I'LL MAKE IT !!!

ONCE...firemen on bike !

[Tue 24 Jan 2006 1102]

I was waiting for the traffic light to turn green as I saw blue-red siren-like lights coming. And it turned out to be FIREMEN! They're on bike...cool bike i'm talking about. It's like the other bike of Kesatria Baja Hitam. I'm not sure whether it's new or it has been around for some time already...but that was my first time seing it ! Tuesday night.

ONCE...did I say it too much ?

[Wed 25 Jan 2006 1153]
It hit me when TS apologized to me few times when I mentioned to her that "...I was given a dateline from my...err...errmm..staff..". It all started from her email on the possible job scope of TS (based on her research from JobStreet, her thought, etc), I was given a dateline to provide the written and confirmed job scope of TS. And I make fun of it (or sarcastically) said that to her. But, I guess, she probably felt "..oppss...shouldn't do that to my BOSS !!" as she kept apologizing. It made me thinking, did I mentioned it to much (few times in a row) that made her think that I'm serioud about it. Am I..?! Or Am I not ?!

Let say it doesn't really matter to me, but..would it be the same if other people put the same remark to me ?! Am I actually created or really DO or PRACTICE favouritism ? Or is it that we kinda close since we think a like (LC always mentioned "..great people think alike.."), have common interest and stuff that I don't quite disturb with such statement. I guess if AMBD gave the same remark, I wouldn't budge so much about it.

Anyway, perhaps..to be on the safe side, she could improve...put a softer tone. Just in-case ! Not every boss is okey with such statement.

ONCE...gotta-be-kidding !

I saw this and immediately "...what a joke !" It'd be amazing those Standard Four students are soooo bold and precisely aware about their rights under which part of the law..and make them filed to sue the GOVERNMENT !!! It is obviously driven by the parents, and that's is TRULY manipulating their children for don't-know-what reason. Guess this people has nothing better to do except trying to get easy money, big bucks, fame (or shame really) or glamour by sueing the govt.

Let's try to be professional here (concentrate on the issue). It has been implemented for 3 (if I'm not mistaken) years. It should have been then rather than now. And 4 students out of few hundred thousands, is too little to be taken seriously. It should be for the good of the country. If it do good to 1/2 million youngsters, I guess we can ignore the 4. Perhaps, the parents should look into better ways to improve their children's performance in catching up with English rather than pamperring them with unnecessary protection.

ONCE...improved

Alhamdulillah...AD#1 seems motivated. Guess AD#1 and AD#2 (soon-to-be TS by Feb) has sorted their problem or issues...as they look friendly like before. TM seems in control, eventhough out-of-hand but looks like he know how to manage it. Called him for project update (30 minutes notice only) and he can update me smoothly.

LC asked me to present for MyD's tender presentation. Asked SUS organizer, he said can be excused..just that lost that session. Then, postponsed to 5 pm 24 Jan instead of morning. Guess skip the night class only. Told BDM to let TS free on Monday, want her to prepare my presentation script.

Seems like everything fall into places one-by-one. But need to be very patient and keep going. Take it one-step at a time. LC called me at about 2035 about the potential investor, seems like positive. Need to pray more and work harder still. My mentor came back from Haj today, will pay him a visit tomorrow night.

ONCE...TeAM Council

LC asked me last week, whether I want to be in TeAM Council or not. She can't continue, wanna recommend me. Yesterday, she told me that the recommendation has been supported by Nazrin! If accepted, then need to spend time on that also. But, no complain man ! I wanna learn from those people, esp Nazrin, on how to think critically, comment constructively, act and behave professionally, and how to network/socialize naturally.

Anyway, will need to wait for TeAM's AGM first. If elected, hope I can perform and deliver as expected. Will need lots of support by then! Aah...I'm going for SUS training ! Monday till Saturday...hehehhe..accommodation provided (as in the website)...training, in Shah Alam !!! 10 minutes drive from my house..hehehe...